10 cosulting phrase XD

1、用心做自己該做的事
2、每個人都有自己的活法
3、別總是自己跟自己過不去
4、不要過於計較別人的評價
5、不妨暫時丟開煩心事
6、自己感覺幸 福就是幸福
7、最重要的是今天的心
8、木已成舟便要順其自然
9、不必一味討好別人
10、喜歡自己才會擁抱生活。

dun emo lar... ^^

1、学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间。

2、学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，让别人看不穿你的伤心。

3、学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，要知道世界总是孤单的，地球也只有一个啊，它都寂寞那么久了，我们算什么。

4、学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，笑给别人看，哭给自己听就好。

5、学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。

6、学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。

7、学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。

8、学会满足，所谓知足常乐。想想小时候一颗糖果就可以开心一整天了。

9、学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做。

10、学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气，多了会惹人厌的。

11、学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。

12、学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。

life in form 6 again...

well, today i juz totally freak up with all those things...
studies, love and career(prefect)
i have a total mess with these 3 things this year...

i dunno wad to do n juz fed up with myself...
my class is another reason also...
y have such an unpeaceful momnet in our class...
it's juz havin war all the times...
haiz...

if i mention sc 1 is better... i dunno this will cause problem or not...
i juz thing that other class is so peaceful... y not our class?
i really hate this...
everybody is talking about this... does it has an end on it?
the class things may not affect me much as i dun really involve in those war...
i juz haiz... peacemaker... come on... this is a tough job... Moreover, i dunno much about what they are arguing for... juz the smeel of guns powder are so thick in this class...
n there is a lot of mines in our calss... mind ur step...

the next things...
haiz... today somebody really disappointed me...
at first... i am on warpath...
i dunno wad i should said... if i go on and bincang with him... i know somethings will happen between us... i really dun wan to break this freindship...
but then.... his attitude is unbarable...
he never really help me and think of solution to cure problem faced by me...
and the only thing he know is keep on commenting...
i dun wan to type so much in here as this is opened for public to view...
tomorrow i juz personally talk with him ba...
this is the better solution i things...

Reminder: plz, if anyone of u had problem... find the source of problem and cure it by yourself...

about love... haha... let it be ba... ady so much no c? haiyo...
k la.. that's all...

live strongly and happily o ^^

i've chnaged again...

haiz...
now... i think most of us busy studyin ba...
but... i'm busy playin ler...
can someone help...
i promise myself to study but... but...
friday wasted... (watch movie)
satuday also wasted... ( gotong royong + pc-ing)
to have entertainment....
n then sunday ler?
haiz... haiz...

typing this in skul...

form 6 life....
this should be my blog address
i think i shall stress on it more...
it's quite sometimes since i had this blog...

and for my other blog i used to type earlier...
now i would like to left it for a while...
sometimes i found that i am really exhausted...
really exhausted that all the things that happen to me is not so funny and will make me more and more emo...
people around me nowadays...
i really dunno what they are thinking...
but one thing they does to affecting me is to giv me stress...
sometimes i wondering i can handle this...
or perhaps... i had think too much ba... haha

by the way, i m quite changab;e as i can be really down for some moment and in a flip of time... u will see me becoming like on the cloud nine... haha...
but, i scared a feeling... that's being lonely...
n now... when i typing this blog... i am really scared of this feeling because once i start to type a blog means i m really boring...
haiz... i really dun really know what had happened...
i m in the library typing this blog instead of doing others things which is more valuble like study or reading...
there's a few guys beside me... so i think i would better stop this ba...
wait they see me typing all this emo things... haha...

live strongly ba... ^^

NOT A HOLIDAY!!!

tell u all.... haiz...
this holiday i haven sleep well for one day at all!
as for the first five days... i'm sick...
i recover on tuesday...
and we r havin extra class from mon-thrus....
so everyday muz wake up early...
then thrusday afternoon i m goin to genting...
friday n saturday... i need to get up early in genting to enjoy...
n then come back... finally... i can rest for one day...
but then dunno which stupids craps go n change the mr. tay tuition to morning!
that means i need to wake up early again...
wad's the meaning of this holiday huh!
OMG!!! haha....
btw... i enjoy the genting trip though... haha

live happily ^^

sick sick sick

i've been sick since the exam end till today!
haiz... earlier always gonna type my blog...
as u know... i m very long winded de...
i type till half giv up ady...
so now... i juz hav a short one...

how i spend my holiday after exam?
the answer is... eating all sort of pills....
drinking all sort of liquids...
that's all... i've been doing this till today...
but about 80% recover ady la... haha... left sore throat only...

Gambateh ba!!! ^^

40 posts!!! celerate!!! cny is coming!!!

a bit late for me to say huh?
is ady the 8th day of cny...
haha
i stll in cy mood
this year cny...
erm.. quite busy than earlier years lo...
cause got tuan bai ma...
really regret miss the u6phy1 de...
but i think if i go also wont enjoy de lar... haha... eye very paint... need eye-mo
haha...
so erm... let see... here's how i go through my 8 days

1st day...
cny lo... juz 12 am is totally emo... dunno y lar... haha
then continue lor... first day as we can only eat vegetables... so we juz stay at home lo... go people house also cannot eat... gamble all the way... i lose teruk... haha

2nd day...
as usual... go bai nian at relaive house lor... total angpao receive... RM 119... haha

3rd day...
erm... goin to tuan bai de but last minutes change decision... haha... cause my relative belanja shark fin at bei zhan... so haiz... can't stand it... plus i need to go to temple pray ma... s never go lo... u all come to my house also never tell me... haiz.. suan liao lor...
then, evening go to bbq gathering for 5sc2 de... quite enjoy lor.. haha... but after that body really yer... sticky n smelly...
back to home... terus two panadol... scared sick... after having all those cao da things... ^^

4th day...
today morning follow kim fa go grace house jian jia zhang
after this go melody house eat and gamble
then go to tuan bai lor... haha
meet my old friends... shang sheng... not bad...
then exhausted... go watch lighning theif... 5 stars!!!
then go eat the taiwan super hot sausage... also 5 stars!!! haha
back home.... 1 panadol... scared the sausage.. haha

5th day...
totally exhausted... morning juz stay at home...
afternoon go old friends house bai nian... (wei xing)
night they all come lor... play my pc lor... haha

6th day...
erm... i think i made a mess for all the days ady... aiyo... lazy wan change ady...paise ya... haha... sorry... gtg pray ti gong lor... bb

boring

today, the class seems to be in a damn cold state!
everybody is sleeping, no mood to study...
haiyo... really sienz man today
nicely got bring my coffee... but it keep on spliting... isyh... really geram...
n then, the fellow beside me rite, i ask all the question to her... and almost 90% of the answer is 'wo bu zhi dao' walao eh... maybe she very frus ba... haiz.. dunno lar... the person behind me... sleep jor ler... n then my right hand side... got air lar... in front of me... got blackboard la... omg... really ke lian ler me... haiz...
n then when last too period... everybody energy at minimum level... almost 1/3 people of my class lying on the table... well... i really take a nap... i means totally sleep for 15 min. i thinks... this is the first time i slept in class for year 2010... haha... so fast break record liao... but after the nap i can concentrate la... nicely never miss a lot of things teach by him too... ^^
that's all for today... need to do hw liao...
gambateh ba... students of whole world...
haha...

a lot of things had happen

many things had happen recently.
and i don't think i can really cope with them one by one
i am not going to type it here, as all of you who understands me know what had actually happened
I will try n cope with it bit by bit
try to be strong

for all those brothers in phy 1, i need time.
i don't really want to join with you all when eating at ming han is beacuse, i hope you all may had know what i mean.
really sorry, i m still not dare to face it and i m not sure i can still concentrate on my studies soon or later on.

So, i would like to just keep my finger crossed and hope miracle will happened.
And please don't try and leave a comment here, it would makes me more emo... ^^
thanks a lot who had encourage me...
for those who throwing stone on my head when i am in the well, also thanks a lot ya...

live strongly ^^

lets talk...

talking, come into sense that it would be a routine for everybody in their daily life...
sometimes... u enjoy the conversation... but sometimes... u really feel unpleasant in an conversation.

for me... i got an aim for my everday life... that is to make a person happy... no matters who is it... even my friends, my family or even a strangers... as long as i can make anyone of them happy... i would be happy too... that's my goal for me everyday... haha

but, the person who sit next to me... u all know is who la... seems to be always moody... i am also not sure about this... she seems to had tonnes of problems in her mind. When i trying to asked her what had happened? She juz refused to answer. Maybe this is her privacy? I understand... But, don't u think i can be trust? haha... seems like i m emo-ing now... haha... but also quite happy sitting beside u la... as u will always ki siao... n make the whole class happy... let see... dun care about wad i said earlier... i juz want to said that, is that the things we can only chat is about studies??? OMG!

ok, next, i really feel very s in sc 2, dunno wad is it? those who know wad this meaning de juz keep quiet... haha

so, making people happy makes me happy....
but, when i saw people is moody, for all my friends...
i will feel moody too... as i dunno how to make them happy again...
i really dunno how to giv advise to a moody person, so i would juz let it be... i also emo lo...

btw... lets us aim towards the happiness and throw away all those moody things... Gambateh ba, everyone!!! today my grammar got improve or not? giv comment ler... haha

my weakness and my strong point

weakness
easily to be down for a very small matters
think too much
jealous kinda easily
easily changed, like iguana
lazy, but now being influenced liao...
can emo for about 15 min. for a small matters
easily obstructed by the surroundings...


strong point
recover quick, won't last long
care for anyone that facing problem ( i got more problem o) haha
easily to be pity on something
easy to communicate
able to help people ( u call me do, i sure help de ) the problem is u muz put all ur trust in me first...

this is wad i discover in this weekend... haha.... ntg to do ma... haiz...
btw, i've found a lot of statistic for my proposal... really happy... ^^

photo... pic...

juz finish watching the sc 1 pic... angel birthday... robin birthday... i miss it one by one...
when sc 1 students r making noice behind the sc 2 wall.. my heart is juz not feeling well... haiz...
juz wanna to be part of u all again... haiz... but i think is impossible le ba... since i can't be in sc1 anymore... after this year we r going tohav our own destination... in different ways...

so, these two days i'm been emo-ing all the tiems... cause sc1 is making a lot of funny noise... singing songs... erm... laughing... cheering... shouting... all the sounds keep on flowing through my ears... haiz... wad should i said... if u all got follow my blog ( i know is long) u should think that i ady suit myself in sc2 ba... actually human is got feeling de... if i really so wasy forget my freinds in sc 1... that means i m cold-blooded or forgetful ba... haiz... hope u all dun forget me ya...
plus the ann chze birthday at sunday also cannot go... mr. tay got tuition... actually everytime u all go out... i will cause u all lots of problem... cause i m the only one got mr.tay tuition... paise ya... sometimes i skip the tuition in order to go play... but now... i think less playing also good la.. concentarte on study ma... btw... i really wanna go to celebrate de... haiz... nvm ba... juz at here wish u happy birthday...

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to ann chze,
happy birthday to you...

old one year jor... but more mature jor... wish u all the best in ur future journey o... ^^

N after the celebration of their birthday... i think is sc 2 de melody le ba... haiz... dunno wad time juz reach my turn... see-ing u all hav so much fun things on your birthday, i really xian mu ler... my birthday i always alone de... like now i typing my blog like this lor... alone de...

n then... today got stay back with kim fa, amy and grace... for group study...
but then go to ming han, haiz...
HAAAIIIZZZ.... clarify ur statement in n _ i _ l _ _
fill in the blank... haiz...
i also dun know la...

after this... erm, kononnya group study... but kim fa keep on disturb... haiz... he really finish eat too free de la... on the song plz on finish ma... like that half half... haiz...

n then kena halao lo... go wan sim n then go back lo... juz like that... go back facing pc till now... i think gonna stop leba... sayonara lo... ZZZ

SITE MAINTAINENCE FOR FACEBOOK! ARGH!

ARgh!!!
facebook got site maintainence... n then i got ntg to do juz come to this blog... talk about things happen today ba... ^^

go to skul... as usaul... long kai a while... means loiter around the skul la...
n then i m so excited to see me new skuad... because i think that it will be very fun to lead them... but that not as wad i think... argh... today my skuad situation is juz a total mess n i can't handle it at all! OUT OF CONTROL... haiz... from 13 people suddenly change to 22 people... walao... how to handle o... i m thinking can make things better if got more people... but then... it makes the situation worse... n then the form 3 students keep on bullying on them... i no face see ler... T.T

so finally... hav some meeting with them... i spread them into few groups n let my ahli lead them... see tomorrow ba... i wanna see wad happen... really jialat... haiz... n then kumpul again... kumpul until one period gone... YEAH! no need PA... ^^ cause also talk about the kenegaraan things which i can study myself...

wa, when i go in the class... is mr. chin period liao... n then i keep my ears on n absorb all the things he had say... although i m tired but still manage to keep 90% concentrate la... lolz... front row ma... n i also curious about the graph... ok la... quite understand la... cause mr. tay got teach before ady... i juz do revision... but the person beside me... jialat lo... keep on scraching her head... haha... gambateh ba... ^^ n then when chin going to left.... walao... mr. lai waiting at the door ady... want to rest a while also cannot. so continue physics... this is my favorite subject ma... so nvm la... can tahan... but also tired... after physic is math... walao.. this 3 subject crush together really makes life hard man... gambateh ba!!! haha

n then... i feel that today really learn lots of things... going to learn mor n more... yeah!
i love studying now... so dun make me feel like love to play again... i also quite love play la... if not really cannot tahan... juz now i know how to balance it ba... really thx... haha...
btw... there's something i wanna say here...

i dun care u does not means that i dun care about u
i care about u does not means that i really care for u...

odd huh? i also dunno wad m i writing... juz try n comment ba... haha...
ok, today is like that, busy day again... after stpm i surely muz enjoy myself gao gao.... but for now... NOT AT ALL... haha... really need to pia... upper 6 de students... jiayou ba...
if i say phy 1 de, phy 2 blame me
if i say phy 2 de, phy 1 blame me
if i say phy de, bio blame me...
so i better say all upper 6
but how ifform 1 to form 5 balme me...
wahaha... then whole gbs de students... GAMBATEH BA!!!!! lolx

yeah

today... NO HOMEWORK!
mani got essay ba... but i no mood do... do also he wont check de
so i done one thing i also cant believe myself
i revise the peng. am. badan kehakiman.
try n prepare the phase equilibrium mr. chin going to teach tomorrow... for better absorption
n then solve one federal question by myself... haha... sounds stupid... but i very happy... ^^ yeah...
hahahahahahahahahhahahah...

i never done revision at all last year... i also dun believe i will do it... hehe

for mani sockalingam sake...

kanasai... kanasai...

this view quite ok.... lol

my study desk... got kena snap abit... hehe

for his sake... i'm online for half and hour...
fb-ing and chatting
walao eh... waste my time... isy isy... n now blogging pulak

FIRSTLY... i would like to say very very very very very sorry to a person... really sorry ler... that time i too rush forgot ady....really sorry ler... u got take ur bag ma??? i really forgetful... sry to the forg... sry... i ady type so many sorry lo... forgive me ler... i really sorry... next time i sure do as wad u orders... i still feel i m irresponsible till now ler... sorry ya, bro...

ok then... this two days i've also been suffering... the first day dun talk much about it la... i also forget wad happen liao... talk about today ba... erm...

today... rain hair hair rain... so no need duty... yes! ^^
n then no form 1 to add into my skuad... i hope all girls add to my sjkuad... hehe...
maybe one form 4 girl also coming... lol... waiting for it... teck cong...

ok then... go into class... first period... chemistry... walao... suffer for two period... really... not the teacher not good... is my chemistry too bad ba... also not too bad... i know wad he is talking about... n i had ady done my revision on weekend... but the main thing is... i dun hav interest on this subject...

but the organic chemistry i think i had some interest ba... hehe... mr. tay had touch a bit in tuition ady... although got a lot of things to memorise... but i love it... haha... cause all is the hydrocarbon compound which my base is quite good... hehe... boosting pulak... haha...

n then is physic period... wa... sc 2 really different with sc 1 man... i means when doing the experiment... wahaha... after i type hope sc 2 students dun belasah me ya...;D

ok, sc 1 as u know... got 2 professer... sc 2... i think no ba... zzz
n then sc 2 can pass up report... tomorrow... wa... so nice... but i also manage to done it before skul dismissed la... (sure many wrong de)
n then... when setting up the apparatus... the whole class use the battery as power supply... walao eh... omg... then i call them change dun wan... haha... then i call xin hui go ask mr. lai... then juz confirm is use the gererator... not battery... (cause earlier i also confuse need to use battery or generator) but then i think is need a.c. so very odd lo... aiya... dun talk much about this ady la... so the exp. i had carried out... walao... really kealam kabut man... many things havent done... omg... i dunno wad will happen to my future experiment... ask mr. lai kena scold somemore.

when melody come n ask me the question i had ask mr. lai earlier... i use back exactly how mr. lai scold me n scold her back... wahaha.... evil eh me... but then i hope mr. lai didn't haer when i scolding melody... hehe...

n then the result also agak agak only... btw... if amy didn't bring that report done by last year students... i think we all lagi jialat... thx for her...

ok, finish about the experiment things... haha...
let see... erm... wad else...
then the mani... haiz... juz to say he is... lazy lar... no comment...

a ha... juz to tell sc 2... i dunno i should type this or not... maybe after i type hor... many people will hate me ba... but i muz type...

teacher giv homework... as a student we juz do lor... n then pass up on time...
but then i go remind teacher... all su me pulak... say if i didn't say then teacher won't know... haiz... but then... perhaps i think i also some sort of kepo... maybe they r correct too... but... haiz... i said i wan change lo... then wad for follow the trends? haha... but if i change maybe i cannot mix in the students group pulak... i m on my way to becoming a nerd? walao... my brain start to appear a lot of ques...

btw... is got one people keep on paksa me de... haiz... do gentleman kena scold lor... haha... but that really make that fellow feel disappointed izit? haiz... cheer up... no big deals... be urself... n then after that fellow done something... (collect something in the class) the reaction of the class disappointed that fellow again... haiz... she keep emo-ing until about one period... i also dunno wad to do... haiz... i also juz emo lo... lolx... cause i really dunno wad to do when a girls cry or emoing... i dunno how to 'an wei' them... i juz will make the situation worst... so silent is gold... lol... everthing will be fine de...
ship till bridge head sure will straight de... lol

then the math period... i juz emo lo... i said ady... i easily being influence the... the person beside me emo... i dunno wad to do... also emo lor... n then the calss condition also like wan to die like that... so i also no mood lo... haiz... HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ........

then after skul... go st. john learn how to make rose... this is my first rose o... let u all see... really kanasai... haha... but i make it de wor... (see above) lazy to shift down ler...

2nd week in upper 6 and the word (FOLLOW)

as all of u know... i had been transferred to sc 2 this year...
n i start to feel that i m a part of them now...
n then how about sc 1? did i lose my track with them ady? i dunno? perhaps not...
i know that sc1 friends still remember me hor? haha...

ok, let see... i've been trying hard since i went to this class...
everybody is so pia... so hard-working... i also cannot lose... maybe this kiasu things is in my blood ba...
ok, let see... i m very flexible, or in another words, i can change myself quick n suit to the environment very fast ba... this is good, but i muz admit that i really hav no self-confident... all the things i know is follow... remember this word... FOLLOW...

i feel that i m useless again... haha... everything people do i FOLLOW!
u hard-working i follow...
u talk niao hua i follow...
u concentrate i follow...
u lazy i follow...
u do hw i follow...
u keep on delayed ur work i follow...

i really start to change myself according to the environment...
n i can say that i m totally different in lower 6 n upper 6
maybe i dunno which path i need to walk... so i juz follow the path people had walked before.... i also dun dare to open a brand new path for me to walk on...
i m quite scared of obstacles which r blocking in my way... really scared...

somehow, this is me...
u hav hp, i also wan
u hav money, i also wan
u hav psp, i also wan...
everything i wan...

u scored great marks, i also wan
u get a gf, i also wan
u got go outing, i also wan...
i very 8 n really dunno which path i had to walk... juz follow...

wad to do? lolz... of course i m not following everything people do la... of course i won't go n die or commit suicide la... wakaka... btw, i m trying to control myself not to follow others now... all i wanna do is study... becoming a nerd... lol... but still need socialise la... c2 a bit ma... ^^

let see... erm... i m juz wasting my time talking about the follow things eh... never talk of my daily life...
so i had stated the first two days is really black for me... the third day i dun really remember liao...

but juz to tell u that my daily routine had change... let see how it change ya... (a lot to type somemore ler)

lower 6
6.30-7.00
chatting with robin, yew ming, vincent, liang khai at canteen, waiting to beratur ma...

7.00-11.00 and 11.20-2.00
chit-chatting while teacher teaching...
day-dreaming about 50% of the lesson
got free period is niao hua period
keep walking here n there disturbing people
(for may2009 to june2009) keep walking to a class when got free period
n this i should say it... (too depends on somebody) haha... u noe i noe de lar...

11.00-11.20
hmm... sometimes come out early n eat lo...
let see... earlier very happy, but at the end of the year emo-ing all the time

2.00-2.10
not going to eat lunch so fast... 75 steps
always go ming han my lunch will be chicken rice... cause is fast

2.10-4.00
got skul somemore... walao... pening!!!

4.00-6.00
went back home... bath la... dinner la... bla bla bla

6.00-8.00
finish my dinner liao wor... very fast eh? haha, family want to kejar drama on 6 pm
so we take our dinner at about 5.30... wakaka...
they watch drama... i fb-ing, gaming, n blogging

8.00-10.30
sometimes will sleep for half n hour...
this suppose to be the time i do my hw... but... i spend all my time sms-ing...
CAUSE doing hw is boring!
n then i keep on sms n my hw is juz... haha... u know la...

10.30-11.30
msn time!!! first time i think that msn is so fun...
n the last time i think msn is so 'fun'

N THEN GO SLEEP... tomorrow sure got panda eyes de... ^^

NOW! the new life begin in upper 6

6.30-7.00
chat with the same group again... n then follow tc round the skul sharing our things..

7.00-7.30
carry out duty as a prefect seriously... lower 6 i dun really care...
but this year i think that i really shall make my skuad better...
some of my ahli may be suffering i noe... paise ya... i juz wan to make the skuad better...
i wanna say that, if u treat me nicely, i will try to treat u back nicely (double)
but if u betrayed me or something else, i would not say anything, juz will nag u a while or... juz dun really care about u... so, plz... for my friends... plz dun betrayed me... my heart is very glassy... n broke easily... n i really dissapointed now... haha... where i talk liao huh? ok, back to point...
juz wanna to carry out my duty as a prefect... because this is my responsibility ma.. ^^

7.30-11.00 and 11.20-2.00
ok, here's go a great change
teacher teaching (90% concentrate) cause sitting in front...
done all the hw except che. too much!
when got free period... put super glue on my chair n do hw
start to love phy n math again

P.S. i didn't really practise all the point above... juz when i start to suit myself into the environment... i will sa=tart walking aroud again... cause sitting in-front is too STRESS!!! muz take some fresh air... ^^

2.00
faster, i wanna go back home n do hw...

3.00-6.00
this erm... cause earlier always about 5 juz reach home... suddenly change to 2 not so biasa... so also wasting my time lenggang-lenggang... read newspaper n psp lo... ^^ i m wasting this 3 hours actually... a-ha... my sleeping time!!!

6.00-7.00
do some homework... i mean if too much... if not is drama...

7.00-8.00
a muz watch drama... (ping pang yuan)

8.00-10.15
erm... seldom continue to watch the drama... always will start do my work at about 8.15... n then if no more hw... revision... if dun wan revision... do extra hw... i means if math the teacher call do 8.3, i will do 8.4... haha... really chi bao tai xian kong...

P.S. 9.30 ming tian hui geng hao...

10.30
sleep... ZZZ

For mani sake... he need us to done his work in pc n print it out... when i touch pc... u know wad happen la... haha... so sometimes can't control also jialat lo... ^^

OK la... i type REALLY long liao... hope u all enjoy my changing...
this type of change i think is correct ba?
haha, m i asking rubbish... hehehe ^^

walao eh... it hink i shall go n sleep now eh? but y?

haha... guess wad... now i really want to say out all the things i wanna say...
i dun wan to keep all the things in my heart again..i scared will burst someday...
ok, first... go to skul... my dad fight with teack cong... haha...
i means racing to skul... cool eh, my dad win... hehe...

n then.. go to skul, saw something... ok la.. i ady say, i wanna say it out... saw doreen n chee hao lo... juz feel like got something else... dunno la... we ady lose connection liao... i also dun mention it too much la...

so my mood become very down... no mood duty, n no mood kumpul my skuad... i scared after this i will scold my skuad n make them fell scared of me again... so juz let them go... i dun wan them to be my chu qi tong...

n then, erm... go to class.. lovely physic period... i love it so much, been solving lots of problem... n i really love it... hope got more n more mr. lai period... hehe... i very odd de la...

btw... i had learned a few more things... i think that last year i m depending on kim fa too much... haha... i dun really hav self-confident... everything i asked him... n then now, without him... erm... maybe i need to learn how to berdikari ba... lol

chemistry exp.
this is the first time i done it out with my partner... ej... he make a big mistake also... but nvm la... we can try again de... but we also using the shortcut way to get the result... wakaka... btw... i had done it myself... really happy ^^
n one more thing... i finish the report today!! yeah!

PA graph.
this is also the first time done a graph without kim fa... n i m the fastest in class somemore... really happy... ^^ haha... i m boosting eh... but i really happy ma... finally can concentrate on my study 100%, but sometimes also will emo a while la... ^^ but study comes first...

so as u see... things can be done if u all had tried it... dun giv up n had lots more confident to yourself...
well, if want to say me... i m juz an ordinary man without any talent... everything for mr is juz so-so...
dance like shit
piano learn half-half
all subject also not so good
if want to suakn, there's nothing i can take part
i dun hav stamina, power
i dun really hav a healthy body with highly immune system
i dun really hav a lots of friends
i dun really know how to communicate with others (frequency not same)
i dunno swim, dunno basketball, dunno football, dunno volleyball, ping pong juz know little little...
haha, like i very stupid...
i dunno wad i know how to do, dunno where is my talent...
but, if i try, everything can be succeed... n now i m putting all my effort onto studies... cause i know that this is the only things i can do...
for my parents sake, i wanna to become a nerd again... maybe i m also a nerd earlier on... i juz not dare to admit it...

i m juz an ordinary person, n like challenging things, but i will giv up easily, dunno, perhaps this is my weakness... i also dunno wad to say... sometimes i really feel that i m a useless guys, juz a burden to my friends... i m the want who recieve a lot, but dun often giv... but if there are something i really can contributed to my friends... i will giv 100% but really, i dunno many things... n need u all to teach me...

OK! enough of this... dun think that u r useless... never try never no... nEVER GIV UP! CHEER UP! as to all my friends who r facing problem now too...

for amy n kim fa sake... i wrote this blog until 12.25a.m. haha... cause i saw their blog ma... so got mood to write blog liao...
here's some advise to u two

amy
ok, i really satisfied u sitting next to me...
first, u r not giving pressure to me k? it's juz a motivation... really thx, i've never been motivated so much last year...
sitting beside u and in front of the class makes me pay fully attention to all the periods in the class... really... n then ur mouth which like to ask question or answering question had influence my mouth too... i started to open my mouth n ask teacher ady...which i not dare to do earlier on... second thx...
u r so hardworking that influence me again... third thx...
really thx thx thx to u... u r juz giving a positive influence to me... on the other hand, hope that i never giv any bad influence to u ler... wakaka...
n ur living philosophy i think... u said to me before... study is study, play is play... u really can seperate these two things very well... good!
so, i m not feeling pressure sitting beside u... ok? dun think too much, cause juz now see ur blog liao... wakaka

kim fa
i dunno u too much even tough i've been sitting beside u for about half years...
juz to advise u that speak out all u one to another person... ur problem... ur matters... juz find a person u can trust n speak it out... if can, cry out loud or sing some song... this will help u to relieve a lot.... really... btw... this is my point of view... juz think that u hav a lot of things keep in ur heart n dun wan express out... haha... dunno la eh... it's all depends on u! cheer up! bro!

STUPID!

omg... this week had been the harsh me for me!!!
Only two day had pass only u know!!! n i m totally exhausted...
ok, here's the first day...

11/1
morning woke up ady blur blur... cause sunday nite sleep quite late...
then only know today got team training as ivan sms n ask me...
n then... go to skul... carry out duty as usual...
after this... erm... i means after the schooling times... finally, it's time to dismissed.
after having lunch, got latihan rumah sukan... force myself juz to run two rounds around the school and then went back at about 4.30pm...
then go back is about 5 something(after fetching my sis)
n then after eating... do a while hw... go to tuition at about 7... walao...
until 10.30 juz reach back home... need to do homework somemore... omg... monday is really black man!!!

12/1
today, everything also went off as usual... juz today i had an extra-long talk to my ahli skuad... paise ya... T.T i juz wanna make the skuad better only... n then go to the hall hear the stupid speech until 2 period... wtf... waste onr physics period liao la... i love physic so much man... T.T all the principle sake...

then we hav dance training in our class... my movement is like a robot... paise ya... i will train de... lolz... then erm... perhaps i should go back at 3.45pm ba... but my father put me aeroplane... i wait until 5.30... omg! ishy... waste my 2 hours... i trying to study chemistry, but my stucky n dirty body juz refuse to do it.... T.T btw... hav a nice chat with my friends though... but they went back one by one... T.T until left me n my sis... haha... n then come back... until now lo... writing blog... haha...

stressful upper 6...

4/1
as usual... go to skul... n knowing that i will drop class, i went into sc1 late,(juz walk behind mr.chu) when he step into our class, i know wad will happen, n would juz disappear before i started to chat with my sc1 friends... haha, pretty funny eh...

as i predicted, my named is in the black lists and going to the next class...
A new life will begin i suppose... ^^ I had made my preparation to drop class...
as i, ej n yj went to the other class, rachel n long choy also going to sc3 but samson goin to sc 1...ok, there something happen between me n him but i dun wan mention it now...

ok, go into the class, sit at front row, cause i really scared of it and i really need to start and work hard now... this would be a lesson that will kept in my heart forever... cause i m one of the 3 who had drop class n it's really shameful... haha, maybe i should be more +ve n receive my fate ba... ^^

OK then, i muz face every teacher that come into the class bravely, cause when they come in, they will surely ask, got new students? how many drop, how many raise... all sort of ques.. as for us 3 who r sitting in front, we r so clear until every teacher realise that there are 3 'new' students... ok then, this really hurt but i think this will last only for the first day ba...

another hurt paragraph, juz to express my feeling... once i m in sc 2, i can hear the noise coming from sc1, the laughter, the chatting voice, ah pok shouting, every voice n sounds that comes out from the class, it seems that is so familiar, n i hope i will be part of it too... but, it's impossible now... haha... start to thinking that sc1 is my home... i really miss it... T.T...

then i think finally the first day end, nobody in sc 1 really comes n say hello to me... dunno la... that time i juz feel like that lo... T.T

5/1
second day... in sc 2, maybe today i will stress about the teacher ba... somehow, i like mr. lai so much, my mood to learn physic had ady come back, phy used to be my favorite subject in form 4 n form 5... haha... now really like it again... n every moment hope for mr.lai to teach more... walao... haha... i became so odd liao...

n then, the next subject is math, mr. chu period is quite boring, but somehow i like to solve math question... haha... juz keep on solving from holiday until now... addicted liao...^^

after this... is chemistry... i don't think my chemistry is so good... so when the teacher is explaining... some of the things i still not manage to catch it... as the sc 2 students is having their extra class in the holiday, i never attend, really miss a lot of things... but nvm la... i will borrow their paper n do some revision ba... GAMBATEH! people work once, i will work twice, until i totally understand wad is it...

but then the other two subeject, it really can't help if u work twice or triple... n this is the language subject... my pa teacher n muet teacher, keep on catching people out n shoot them with bullet... walao... if u r not careful maybe u will being boom by the teacher also... i had been shoot by mani many times o... cause maybe he thinks(by looking at my innocent face) my eng. is not so good... n i keep on being his target all the times ( sitting in front) haiz...

p.s. today shifted to form 2 block... two word to describe it... NOT FAIR!!!

6/1-8/1
wad should i said... omg... the pa teacher, wad wrongs with her... we all guys sitting in front got wrong meh? y need to change place!!! argh! grace n amy who r sitting in the boys group is being shifted out n exchange their place with ej n yj... N i m the only guys sitting in the gropus of girls!

i think i should feel happy ba? sitting with all the girls?
or feel sad... cause maybe next time u see me my action n reaction like girl liao... or perhaps i dunno wad's all the guys talking about? haha... nvm la...

i will said that this is a good change... i keep on wanna to stay in the first row cause i want to become really serious... giving stress to myself... force myself to hear every words coming out from teacher... n after the changing place... i had another impact... really big IMPACT!

somehow when i group with amy when outing, she is so 'dian'... i means SS la.. so i think she will be ok if sit beside me ba... but, haiz... y she in skul n outside so many difference de... T.T she is damn serious... really... walao eh, sometimes i chat with her she does not had any response...(so serious doing hw or listening to teacher) omg... Now! i had lose my talking partner... n i can't even hav fun in class...so wad should i do? CHANGE! haha... i think i need to change back into nerd ba... or if want to said it more nicely... i should said change to serious ba...

ok, then, i shall really really thx to mr. chu... he make me realise that i was really in trouble... n i need to focus in my studies in order to had a beeter pathway for my future... really thanks u transfer me to this class... i had ready to begin a new life in this class... i really need to study hard...

this week had been the longest week ever in my life... it's so hard to pass... but i think the effort i put into study in this week is more than the effort i put into my study life for the last year... really, i m not kidding... n my energy wasted really fast... every period, i muz concentrate... i means after the changing place... anything that i can't get it or dun understand i will try n solve it... really suffer, n every period i m so tired and fear of being shoot... really tired life...
every morning i woke up i will start to refuse to go to skul... n i really scared of it for the first 2 days... but then, after this, i start to be familiar with this kind of life... hopefully, i will try n suit myself in it...

N as a conclusion, form 6 is for us to really put in effort to study... really...I really need to catch up those things i can't even handle when i'm in lower 6... argh... really a lot of things... btw, after u all reading this post, u will think that... erm... did kok chun become hard-working liao???

SADLY, the answer is NONONO... XD
juz to tell u all that,
i had drama time for 2 hours per day...
psp for 2 hours per day...
n the good thing is...
no more pc n sms...
trying to keep up all the hw.. (expect for chemistry, too many!)
btw, no extra revision had been done by me until NOW... haha...
So, i m still quite a lazy bump if u look carefully... wakaka... XD

N now... i had wasted about 45 minutes to type this blog... (kim fa sake)
n now is 12a.m. of saturday... woohoo...
n lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! JON WYN!!! haha... funny eh? hehehe... XD