Form 6 life

10 cosulting phrase XD

2010-10-15T20:08:00.000-07:00

1、用心做自己該做的事
2、每個人都有自己的活法
3、別總是自己跟自己過不去
4、不要過於計較別人的評價
5、不妨暫時丟開煩心事
6、自己感覺幸福就是幸福
7、最重要的是今天的心
8、木已成舟便要順其自然
9、不必一味討好別人
10、喜歡自己才會擁抱生活。

dun emo lar... ^^

2010-09-30T07:42:00.000-07:00

1、学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间。

2、学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，让别人看不穿你的伤心。

3、学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，要知道世界总是孤单的，地球也只有一个啊，它都寂寞那么久了，我们算什么。

4、学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，笑给别人看，哭给自己听就好。

5、学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。

6、学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。

7、学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。

8、学会满足，所谓知足常乐。想想小时候一颗糖果就可以开心一整天了。

9、学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做。

10、学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气，多了会惹人厌的。

11、学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。

12、学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。

life in form 6 again...

2010-04-09T06:21:00.000-07:00

well, today i juz totally freak up with all those things...
studies, love and career(prefect)
i have a total mess with these 3 things this year...

i dunno wad to do n juz fed up with myself...
my class is another reason also...
y have such an unpeaceful momnet in our class...
it's juz havin war all the times...
haiz...

if i mention sc 1 is better... i dunno this will cause problem or not...
i juz thing that other class is so peaceful... y not our class?
i really hate this...
everybody is talking about this... does it has an end on it?
the class things may not affect me much as i dun really involve in those war...
i juz haiz... peacemaker... come on... this is a tough job... Moreover, i dunno much about what they are arguing for... juz the smeel of guns powder are so thick in this class...
n there is a lot of mines in our calss... mind ur step...

the next things...
haiz... today somebody really disappointed me...
at first... i am on warpath...
i dunno wad i should said... if i go on and bincang with him... i know somethings will happen between us... i really dun wan to break this freindship...
but then.... his attitude is unbarable...
he never really help me and think of solution to cure problem faced by me...
and the only thing he know is keep on commenting...
i dun wan to type so much in here as this is opened for public to view...
tomorrow i juz personally talk with him ba...
this is the better solution i things...

Reminder: plz, if anyone of u had problem... find the source of problem and cure it by yourself...

about love... haha... let it be ba... ady so much no c? haiyo...
k la.. that's all...

live strongly and happily o ^^

i've chnaged again...

2010-04-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

haiz...
now... i think most of us busy studyin ba...
but... i'm busy playin ler...
can someone help...
i promise myself to study but... but...
friday wasted... (watch movie)
satuday also wasted... ( gotong royong + pc-ing)
to have entertainment....
n then sunday ler?
haiz... haiz...

typing this in skul...

2010-03-25T00:26:00.000-07:00

form 6 life....
this should be my blog address
i think i shall stress on it more...
it's quite sometimes since i had this blog...

and for my other blog i used to type earlier...
now i would like to left it for a while...
sometimes i found that i am really exhausted...
really exhausted that all the things that happen to me is not so funny and will make me more and more emo...
people around me nowadays...
i really dunno what they are thinking...
but one thing they does to affecting me is to giv me stress...
sometimes i wondering i can handle this...
or perhaps... i had think too much ba... haha

by the way, i m quite changab;e as i can be really down for some moment and in a flip of time... u will see me becoming like on the cloud nine... haha...
but, i scared a feeling... that's being lonely...
n now... when i typing this blog... i am really scared of this feeling because once i start to type a blog means i m really boring...
haiz... i really dun really know what had happened...
i m in the library typing this blog instead of doing others things which is more valuble like study or reading...
there's a few guys beside me... so i think i would better stop this ba...
wait they see me typing all this emo things... haha...

live strongly ba... ^^

NOT A HOLIDAY!!!

2010-03-20T09:33:00.000-07:00

tell u all.... haiz...
this holiday i haven sleep well for one day at all!
as for the first five days... i'm sick...
i recover on tuesday...
and we r havin extra class from mon-thrus....
so everyday muz wake up early...
then thrusday afternoon i m goin to genting...
friday n saturday... i need to get up early in genting to enjoy...
n then come back... finally... i can rest for one day...
but then dunno which stupids craps go n change the mr. tay tuition to morning!
that means i need to wake up early again...
wad's the meaning of this holiday huh!
OMG!!! haha....
btw... i enjoy the genting trip though... haha

live happily ^^

sick sick sick

2010-03-15T00:30:00.000-07:00

i've been sick since the exam end till today!
haiz... earlier always gonna type my blog...
as u know... i m very long winded de...
i type till half giv up ady...
so now... i juz hav a short one...

how i spend my holiday after exam?
the answer is... eating all sort of pills....
drinking all sort of liquids...
that's all... i've been doing this till today...
but about 80% recover ady la... haha... left sore throat only...

Gambateh ba!!! ^^

40 posts!!! celerate!!! cny is coming!!!

2010-02-21T07:37:00.000-08:00

a bit late for me to say huh?
is ady the 8th day of cny...
haha
i stll in cy mood
this year cny...
erm.. quite busy than earlier years lo...
cause got tuan bai ma...
really regret miss the u6phy1 de...
but i think if i go also wont enjoy de lar... haha... eye very paint... need eye-mo
haha...
so erm... let see... here's how i go through my 8 days

1st day...
cny lo... juz 12 am is totally emo... dunno y lar... haha
then continue lor... first day as we can only eat vegetables... so we juz stay at home lo... go people house also cannot eat... gamble all the way... i lose teruk... haha

2nd day...
as usual... go bai nian at relaive house lor... total angpao receive... RM 119... haha

3rd day...
erm... goin to tuan bai de but last minutes change decision... haha... cause my relative belanja shark fin at bei zhan... so haiz... can't stand it... plus i need to go to temple pray ma... s never go lo... u all come to my house also never tell me... haiz.. suan liao lor...
then, evening go to bbq gathering for 5sc2 de... quite enjoy lor.. haha... but after that body really yer... sticky n smelly...
back to home... terus two panadol... scared sick... after having all those cao da things... ^^

4th day...
today morning follow kim fa go grace house jian jia zhang
after this go melody house eat and gamble
then go to tuan bai lor... haha
meet my old friends... shang sheng... not bad...
then exhausted... go watch lighning theif... 5 stars!!!
then go eat the taiwan super hot sausage... also 5 stars!!! haha
back home.... 1 panadol... scared the sausage.. haha

5th day...
totally exhausted... morning juz stay at home...
afternoon go old friends house bai nian... (wei xing)
night they all come lor... play my pc lor... haha

6th day...
erm... i think i made a mess for all the days ady... aiyo... lazy wan change ady...paise ya... haha... sorry... gtg pray ti gong lor... bb

boring

2010-02-09T05:14:00.000-08:00

today, the class seems to be in a damn cold state!
everybody is sleeping, no mood to study...
haiyo... really sienz man today
nicely got bring my coffee... but it keep on spliting... isyh... really geram...
n then, the fellow beside me rite, i ask all the question to her... and almost 90% of the answer is 'wo bu zhi dao' walao eh... maybe she very frus ba... haiz.. dunno lar... the person behind me... sleep jor ler... n then my right hand side... got air lar... in front of me... got blackboard la... omg... really ke lian ler me... haiz...
n then when last too period... everybody energy at minimum level... almost 1/3 people of my class lying on the table... well... i really take a nap... i means totally sleep for 15 min. i thinks... this is the first time i slept in class for year 2010... haha... so fast break record liao... but after the nap i can concentrate la... nicely never miss a lot of things teach by him too... ^^
that's all for today... need to do hw liao...
gambateh ba... students of whole world...
haha...

a lot of things had happen

2010-02-02T06:36:00.000-08:00

many things had happen recently.
and i don't think i can really cope with them one by one
i am not going to type it here, as all of you who understands me know what had actually happened
I will try n cope with it bit by bit
try to be strong

for all those brothers in phy 1, i need time.
i don't really want to join with you all when eating at ming han is beacuse, i hope you all may had know what i mean.
really sorry, i m still not dare to face it and i m not sure i can still concentrate on my studies soon or later on.

So, i would like to just keep my finger crossed and hope miracle will happened.
And please don't try and leave a comment here, it would makes me more emo... ^^
thanks a lot who had encourage me...
for those who throwing stone on my head when i am in the well, also thanks a lot ya...

live strongly ^^

lets talk...

2010-01-30T04:47:00.000-08:00

talking, come into sense that it would be a routine for everybody in their daily life...
sometimes... u enjoy the conversation... but sometimes... u really feel unpleasant in an conversation.

for me... i got an aim for my everday life... that is to make a person happy... no matters who is it... even my friends, my family or even a strangers... as long as i can make anyone of them happy... i would be happy too... that's my goal for me everyday... haha

but, the person who sit next to me... u all know is who la... seems to be always moody... i am also not sure about this... she seems to had tonnes of problems in her mind. When i trying to asked her what had happened? She juz refused to answer. Maybe this is her privacy? I understand... But, don't u think i can be trust? haha... seems like i m emo-ing now... haha... but also quite happy sitting beside u la... as u will always ki siao... n make the whole class happy... let see... dun care about wad i said earlier... i juz want to said that, is that the things we can only chat is about studies??? OMG!

ok, next, i really feel very s in sc 2, dunno wad is it? those who know wad this meaning de juz keep quiet... haha

so, making people happy makes me happy....
but, when i saw people is moody, for all my friends...
i will feel moody too... as i dunno how to make them happy again...
i really dunno how to giv advise to a moody person, so i would juz let it be... i also emo lo...

btw... lets us aim towards the happiness and throw away all those moody things... Gambateh ba, everyone!!! today my grammar got improve or not? giv comment ler... haha

my weakness and my strong point

2010-01-24T08:13:00.000-08:00

weakness
easily to be down for a very small matters
think too much
jealous kinda easily
easily changed, like iguana
lazy, but now being influenced liao...
can emo for about 15 min. for a small matters
easily obstructed by the surroundings...

strong point
recover quick, won't last long
care for anyone that facing problem ( i got more problem o) haha
easily to be pity on something
easy to communicate
able to help people ( u call me do, i sure help de ) the problem is u muz put all ur trust in me first...

this is wad i discover in this weekend... haha.... ntg to do ma... haiz...
btw, i've found a lot of statistic for my proposal... really happy... ^^

photo... pic...

2010-01-23T09:12:00.000-08:00

juz finish watching the sc 1 pic... angel birthday... robin birthday... i miss it one by one...
when sc 1 students r making noice behind the sc 2 wall.. my heart is juz not feeling well... haiz...
juz wanna to be part of u all again... haiz... but i think is impossible le ba... since i can't be in sc1 anymore... after this year we r going tohav our own destination... in different ways...

so, these two days i'm been emo-ing all the tiems... cause sc1 is making a lot of funny noise... singing songs... erm... laughing... cheering... shouting... all the sounds keep on flowing through my ears... haiz... wad should i said... if u all got follow my blog ( i know is long) u should think that i ady suit myself in sc2 ba... actually human is got feeling de... if i really so wasy forget my freinds in sc 1... that means i m cold-blooded or forgetful ba... haiz... hope u all dun forget me ya...
plus the ann chze birthday at sunday also cannot go... mr. tay got tuition... actually everytime u all go out... i will cause u all lots of problem... cause i m the only one got mr.tay tuition... paise ya... sometimes i skip the tuition in order to go play... but now... i think less playing also good la.. concentarte on study ma... btw... i really wanna go to celebrate de... haiz... nvm ba... juz at here wish u happy birthday...

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to ann chze,
happy birthday to you...

old one year jor... but more mature jor... wish u all the best in ur future journey o... ^^

N after the celebration of their birthday... i think is sc 2 de melody le ba... haiz... dunno wad time juz reach my turn... see-ing u all hav so much fun things on your birthday, i really xian mu ler... my birthday i always alone de... like now i typing my blog like this lor... alone de...

n then... today got stay back with kim fa, amy and grace... for group study...
but then go to ming han, haiz...
HAAAIIIZZZ.... clarify ur statement in n _ i _ l _ _
fill in the blank... haiz...
i also dun know la...

after this... erm, kononnya group study... but kim fa keep on disturb... haiz... he really finish eat too free de la... on the song plz on finish ma... like that half half... haiz...

n then kena halao lo... go wan sim n then go back lo... juz like that... go back facing pc till now... i think gonna stop leba... sayonara lo... ZZZ

SITE MAINTAINENCE FOR FACEBOOK! ARGH!

2010-01-20T23:27:00.001-08:00

ARgh!!!
facebook got site maintainence... n then i got ntg to do juz come to this blog... talk about things happen today ba... ^^

go to skul... as usaul... long kai a while... means loiter around the skul la...
n then i m so excited to see me new skuad... because i think that it will be very fun to lead them... but that not as wad i think... argh... today my skuad situation is juz a total mess n i can't handle it at all! OUT OF CONTROL... haiz... from 13 people suddenly change to 22 people... walao... how to handle o... i m thinking can make things better if got more people... but then... it makes the situation worse... n then the form 3 students keep on bullying on them... i no face see ler... T.T

so finally... hav some meeting with them... i spread them into few groups n let my ahli lead them... see tomorrow ba... i wanna see wad happen... really jialat... haiz... n then kumpul again... kumpul until one period gone... YEAH! no need PA... ^^ cause also talk about the kenegaraan things which i can study myself...

wa, when i go in the class... is mr. chin period liao... n then i keep my ears on n absorb all the things he had say... although i m tired but still manage to keep 90% concentrate la... lolz... front row ma... n i also curious about the graph... ok la... quite understand la... cause mr. tay got teach before ady... i juz do revision... but the person beside me... jialat lo... keep on scraching her head... haha... gambateh ba... ^^ n then when chin going to left.... walao... mr. lai waiting at the door ady... want to rest a while also cannot. so continue physics... this is my favorite subject ma... so nvm la... can tahan... but also tired... after physic is math... walao.. this 3 subject crush together really makes life hard man... gambateh ba!!! haha

n then... i feel that today really learn lots of things... going to learn mor n more... yeah!
i love studying now... so dun make me feel like love to play again... i also quite love play la... if not really cannot tahan... juz now i know how to balance it ba... really thx... haha...
btw... there's something i wanna say here...

i dun care u does not means that i dun care about u
i care about u does not means that i really care for u...

odd huh? i also dunno wad m i writing... juz try n comment ba... haha...
ok, today is like that, busy day again... after stpm i surely muz enjoy myself gao gao.... but for now... NOT AT ALL... haha... really need to pia... upper 6 de students... jiayou ba...
if i say phy 1 de, phy 2 blame me
if i say phy 2 de, phy 1 blame me
if i say phy de, bio blame me...
so i better say all upper 6
but how ifform 1 to form 5 balme me...
wahaha... then whole gbs de students... GAMBATEH BA!!!!! lolx

yeah

2010-01-20T07:14:00.000-08:00

today... NO HOMEWORK!
mani got essay ba... but i no mood do... do also he wont check de
so i done one thing i also cant believe myself
i revise the peng. am. badan kehakiman.
try n prepare the phase equilibrium mr. chin going to teach tomorrow... for better absorption
n then solve one federal question by myself... haha... sounds stupid... but i very happy... ^^ yeah...
hahahahahahahahahhahahah...

i never done revision at all last year... i also dun believe i will do it... hehe

for mani sockalingam sake...

2010-01-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

kanasai... kanasai...

this view quite ok.... lol

my study desk... got kena snap abit... hehe

for his sake... i'm online for half and hour...
fb-ing and chatting
walao eh... waste my time... isy isy... n now blogging pulak

FIRSTLY... i would like to say very very very very very sorry to a person... really sorry ler... that time i too rush forgot ady....really sorry ler... u got take ur bag ma??? i really forgetful... sry to the forg... sry... i ady type so many sorry lo... forgive me ler... i really sorry... next time i sure do as wad u orders... i still feel i m irresponsible till now ler... sorry ya, bro...

ok then... this two days i've also been suffering... the first day dun talk much about it la... i also forget wad happen liao... talk about today ba... erm...

today... rain hair hair rain... so no need duty... yes! ^^
n then no form 1 to add into my skuad... i hope all girls add to my sjkuad... hehe...
maybe one form 4 girl also coming... lol... waiting for it... teck cong...

ok then... go into class... first period... chemistry... walao... suffer for two period... really... not the teacher not good... is my chemistry too bad ba... also not too bad... i know wad he is talking about... n i had ady done my revision on weekend... but the main thing is... i dun hav interest on this subject...

but the organic chemistry i think i had some interest ba... hehe... mr. tay had touch a bit in tuition ady... although got a lot of things to memorise... but i love it... haha... cause all is the hydrocarbon compound which my base is quite good... hehe... boosting pulak... haha...

n then is physic period... wa... sc 2 really different with sc 1 man... i means when doing the experiment... wahaha... after i type hope sc 2 students dun belasah me ya...;D

ok, sc 1 as u know... got 2 professer... sc 2... i think no ba... zzz
n then sc 2 can pass up report... tomorrow... wa... so nice... but i also manage to done it before skul dismissed la... (sure many wrong de)
n then... when setting up the apparatus... the whole class use the battery as power supply... walao eh... omg... then i call them change dun wan... haha... then i call xin hui go ask mr. lai... then juz confirm is use the gererator... not battery... (cause earlier i also confuse need to use battery or generator) but then i think is need a.c. so very odd lo... aiya... dun talk much about this ady la... so the exp. i had carried out... walao... really kealam kabut man... many things havent done... omg... i dunno wad will happen to my future experiment... ask mr. lai kena scold somemore.

when melody come n ask me the question i had ask mr. lai earlier... i use back exactly how mr. lai scold me n scold her back... wahaha.... evil eh me... but then i hope mr. lai didn't haer when i scolding melody... hehe...

n then the result also agak agak only... btw... if amy didn't bring that report done by last year students... i think we all lagi jialat... thx for her...

ok, finish about the experiment things... haha...
let see... erm... wad else...
then the mani... haiz... juz to say he is... lazy lar... no comment...

a ha... juz to tell sc 2... i dunno i should type this or not... maybe after i type hor... many people will hate me ba... but i muz type...

teacher giv homework... as a student we juz do lor... n then pass up on time...
but then i go remind teacher... all su me pulak... say if i didn't say then teacher won't know... haiz... but then... perhaps i think i also some sort of kepo... maybe they r correct too... but... haiz... i said i wan change lo... then wad for follow the trends? haha... but if i change maybe i cannot mix in the students group pulak... i m on my way to becoming a nerd? walao... my brain start to appear a lot of ques...

btw... is got one people keep on paksa me de... haiz... do gentleman kena scold lor... haha... but that really make that fellow feel disappointed izit? haiz... cheer up... no big deals... be urself... n then after that fellow done something... (collect something in the class) the reaction of the class disappointed that fellow again... haiz... she keep emo-ing until about one period... i also dunno wad to do... haiz... i also juz emo lo... lolx... cause i really dunno wad to do when a girls cry or emoing... i dunno how to 'an wei' them... i juz will make the situation worst... so silent is gold... lol... everthing will be fine de...
ship till bridge head sure will straight de... lol

then the math period... i juz emo lo... i said ady... i easily being influence the... the person beside me emo... i dunno wad to do... also emo lor... n then the calss condition also like wan to die like that... so i also no mood lo... haiz... HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ........

then after skul... go st. john learn how to make rose... this is my first rose o... let u all see... really kanasai... haha... but i make it de wor... (see above) lazy to shift down ler...

2nd week in upper 6 and the word (FOLLOW)

2010-01-15T07:45:00.000-08:00

as all of u know... i had been transferred to sc 2 this year...
n i start to feel that i m a part of them now...
n then how about sc 1? did i lose my track with them ady? i dunno? perhaps not...
i know that sc1 friends still remember me hor? haha...

ok, let see... i've been trying hard since i went to this class...
everybody is so pia... so hard-working... i also cannot lose... maybe this kiasu things is in my blood ba...
ok, let see... i m very flexible, or in another words, i can change myself quick n suit to the environment very fast ba... this is good, but i muz admit that i really hav no self-confident... all the things i know is follow... remember this word... FOLLOW...

i feel that i m useless again... haha... everything people do i FOLLOW!
u hard-working i follow...
u talk niao hua i follow...
u concentrate i follow...
u lazy i follow...
u do hw i follow...
u keep on delayed ur work i follow...

i really start to change myself according to the environment...
n i can say that i m totally different in lower 6 n upper 6
maybe i dunno which path i need to walk... so i juz follow the path people had walked before.... i also dun dare to open a brand new path for me to walk on...
i m quite scared of obstacles which r blocking in my way... really scared...

somehow, this is me...
u hav hp, i also wan
u hav money, i also wan
u hav psp, i also wan...
everything i wan...

u scored great marks, i also wan
u get a gf, i also wan
u got go outing, i also wan...
i very 8 n really dunno which path i had to walk... juz follow...

wad to do? lolz... of course i m not following everything people do la... of course i won't go n die or commit suicide la... wakaka... btw, i m trying to control myself not to follow others now... all i wanna do is study... becoming a nerd... lol... but still need socialise la... c2 a bit ma... ^^

let see... erm... i m juz wasting my time talking about the follow things eh... never talk of my daily life...
so i had stated the first two days is really black for me... the third day i dun really remember liao...

but juz to tell u that my daily routine had change... let see how it change ya... (a lot to type somemore ler)

lower 6
6.30-7.00
chatting with robin, yew ming, vincent, liang khai at canteen, waiting to beratur ma...

7.00-11.00 and 11.20-2.00
chit-chatting while teacher teaching...
day-dreaming about 50% of the lesson
got free period is niao hua period
keep walking here n there disturbing people
(for may2009 to june2009) keep walking to a class when got free period
n this i should say it... (too depends on somebody) haha... u noe i noe de lar...

11.00-11.20
hmm... sometimes come out early n eat lo...
let see... earlier very happy, but at the end of the year emo-ing all the time

2.00-2.10
not going to eat lunch so fast... 75 steps
always go ming han my lunch will be chicken rice... cause is fast

2.10-4.00
got skul somemore... walao... pening!!!

4.00-6.00
went back home... bath la... dinner la... bla bla bla

6.00-8.00
finish my dinner liao wor... very fast eh? haha, family want to kejar drama on 6 pm
so we take our dinner at about 5.30... wakaka...
they watch drama... i fb-ing, gaming, n blogging

8.00-10.30
sometimes will sleep for half n hour...
this suppose to be the time i do my hw... but... i spend all my time sms-ing...
CAUSE doing hw is boring!
n then i keep on sms n my hw is juz... haha... u know la...

10.30-11.30
msn time!!! first time i think that msn is so fun...
n the last time i think msn is so 'fun'

N THEN GO SLEEP... tomorrow sure got panda eyes de... ^^

NOW! the new life begin in upper 6

6.30-7.00
chat with the same group again... n then follow tc round the skul sharing our things..

7.00-7.30
carry out duty as a prefect seriously... lower 6 i dun really care...
but this year i think that i really shall make my skuad better...
some of my ahli may be suffering i noe... paise ya... i juz wan to make the skuad better...
i wanna say that, if u treat me nicely, i will try to treat u back nicely (double)
but if u betrayed me or something else, i would not say anything, juz will nag u a while or... juz dun really care about u... so, plz... for my friends... plz dun betrayed me... my heart is very glassy... n broke easily... n i really dissapointed now... haha... where i talk liao huh? ok, back to point...
juz wanna to carry out my duty as a prefect... because this is my responsibility ma.. ^^

7.30-11.00 and 11.20-2.00
ok, here's go a great change
teacher teaching (90% concentrate) cause sitting in front...
done all the hw except che. too much!
when got free period... put super glue on my chair n do hw
start to love phy n math again

P.S. i didn't really practise all the point above... juz when i start to suit myself into the environment... i will sa=tart walking aroud again... cause sitting in-front is too STRESS!!! muz take some fresh air... ^^

2.00
faster, i wanna go back home n do hw...

3.00-6.00
this erm... cause earlier always about 5 juz reach home... suddenly change to 2 not so biasa... so also wasting my time lenggang-lenggang... read newspaper n psp lo... ^^ i m wasting this 3 hours actually... a-ha... my sleeping time!!!

6.00-7.00
do some homework... i mean if too much... if not is drama...

7.00-8.00
a muz watch drama... (ping pang yuan)

8.00-10.15
erm... seldom continue to watch the drama... always will start do my work at about 8.15... n then if no more hw... revision... if dun wan revision... do extra hw... i means if math the teacher call do 8.3, i will do 8.4... haha... really chi bao tai xian kong...

P.S. 9.30 ming tian hui geng hao...

10.30
sleep... ZZZ

For mani sake... he need us to done his work in pc n print it out... when i touch pc... u know wad happen la... haha... so sometimes can't control also jialat lo... ^^

OK la... i type REALLY long liao... hope u all enjoy my changing...
this type of change i think is correct ba?
haha, m i asking rubbish... hehehe ^^

walao eh... it hink i shall go n sleep now eh? but y?

2010-01-13T08:01:00.000-08:00

haha... guess wad... now i really want to say out all the things i wanna say...
i dun wan to keep all the things in my heart again..i scared will burst someday...
ok, first... go to skul... my dad fight with teack cong... haha...
i means racing to skul... cool eh, my dad win... hehe...

n then.. go to skul, saw something... ok la.. i ady say, i wanna say it out... saw doreen n chee hao lo... juz feel like got something else... dunno la... we ady lose connection liao... i also dun mention it too much la...

so my mood become very down... no mood duty, n no mood kumpul my skuad... i scared after this i will scold my skuad n make them fell scared of me again... so juz let them go... i dun wan them to be my chu qi tong...

n then, erm... go to class.. lovely physic period... i love it so much, been solving lots of problem... n i really love it... hope got more n more mr. lai period... hehe... i very odd de la...

btw... i had learned a few more things... i think that last year i m depending on kim fa too much... haha... i dun really hav self-confident... everything i asked him... n then now, without him... erm... maybe i need to learn how to berdikari ba... lol

chemistry exp.
this is the first time i done it out with my partner... ej... he make a big mistake also... but nvm la... we can try again de... but we also using the shortcut way to get the result... wakaka... btw... i had done it myself... really happy ^^
n one more thing... i finish the report today!! yeah!

PA graph.
this is also the first time done a graph without kim fa... n i m the fastest in class somemore... really happy... ^^ haha... i m boosting eh... but i really happy ma... finally can concentrate on my study 100%, but sometimes also will emo a while la... ^^ but study comes first...

so as u see... things can be done if u all had tried it... dun giv up n had lots more confident to yourself...
well, if want to say me... i m juz an ordinary man without any talent... everything for mr is juz so-so...
dance like shit
piano learn half-half
all subject also not so good
if want to suakn, there's nothing i can take part
i dun hav stamina, power
i dun really hav a healthy body with highly immune system
i dun really hav a lots of friends
i dun really know how to communicate with others (frequency not same)
i dunno swim, dunno basketball, dunno football, dunno volleyball, ping pong juz know little little...
haha, like i very stupid...
i dunno wad i know how to do, dunno where is my talent...
but, if i try, everything can be succeed... n now i m putting all my effort onto studies... cause i know that this is the only things i can do...
for my parents sake, i wanna to become a nerd again... maybe i m also a nerd earlier on... i juz not dare to admit it...

i m juz an ordinary person, n like challenging things, but i will giv up easily, dunno, perhaps this is my weakness... i also dunno wad to say... sometimes i really feel that i m a useless guys, juz a burden to my friends... i m the want who recieve a lot, but dun often giv... but if there are something i really can contributed to my friends... i will giv 100% but really, i dunno many things... n need u all to teach me...

OK! enough of this... dun think that u r useless... never try never no... nEVER GIV UP! CHEER UP! as to all my friends who r facing problem now too...

for amy n kim fa sake... i wrote this blog until 12.25a.m. haha... cause i saw their blog ma... so got mood to write blog liao...
here's some advise to u two

amy
ok, i really satisfied u sitting next to me...
first, u r not giving pressure to me k? it's juz a motivation... really thx, i've never been motivated so much last year...
sitting beside u and in front of the class makes me pay fully attention to all the periods in the class... really... n then ur mouth which like to ask question or answering question had influence my mouth too... i started to open my mouth n ask teacher ady...which i not dare to do earlier on... second thx...
u r so hardworking that influence me again... third thx...
really thx thx thx to u... u r juz giving a positive influence to me... on the other hand, hope that i never giv any bad influence to u ler... wakaka...
n ur living philosophy i think... u said to me before... study is study, play is play... u really can seperate these two things very well... good!
so, i m not feeling pressure sitting beside u... ok? dun think too much, cause juz now see ur blog liao... wakaka

kim fa
i dunno u too much even tough i've been sitting beside u for about half years...
juz to advise u that speak out all u one to another person... ur problem... ur matters... juz find a person u can trust n speak it out... if can, cry out loud or sing some song... this will help u to relieve a lot.... really... btw... this is my point of view... juz think that u hav a lot of things keep in ur heart n dun wan express out... haha... dunno la eh... it's all depends on u! cheer up! bro!

STUPID!

2010-01-12T02:21:00.000-08:00

omg... this week had been the harsh me for me!!!
Only two day had pass only u know!!! n i m totally exhausted...
ok, here's the first day...

11/1
morning woke up ady blur blur... cause sunday nite sleep quite late...
then only know today got team training as ivan sms n ask me...
n then... go to skul... carry out duty as usual...
after this... erm... i means after the schooling times... finally, it's time to dismissed.
after having lunch, got latihan rumah sukan... force myself juz to run two rounds around the school and then went back at about 4.30pm...
then go back is about 5 something(after fetching my sis)
n then after eating... do a while hw... go to tuition at about 7... walao...
until 10.30 juz reach back home... need to do homework somemore... omg... monday is really black man!!!

12/1
today, everything also went off as usual... juz today i had an extra-long talk to my ahli skuad... paise ya... T.T i juz wanna make the skuad better only... n then go to the hall hear the stupid speech until 2 period... wtf... waste onr physics period liao la... i love physic so much man... T.T all the principle sake...

then we hav dance training in our class... my movement is like a robot... paise ya... i will train de... lolz... then erm... perhaps i should go back at 3.45pm ba... but my father put me aeroplane... i wait until 5.30... omg! ishy... waste my 2 hours... i trying to study chemistry, but my stucky n dirty body juz refuse to do it.... T.T btw... hav a nice chat with my friends though... but they went back one by one... T.T until left me n my sis... haha... n then come back... until now lo... writing blog... haha...

stressful upper 6...

2010-01-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

4/1
as usual... go to skul... n knowing that i will drop class, i went into sc1 late,(juz walk behind mr.chu) when he step into our class, i know wad will happen, n would juz disappear before i started to chat with my sc1 friends... haha, pretty funny eh...

as i predicted, my named is in the black lists and going to the next class...
A new life will begin i suppose... ^^ I had made my preparation to drop class...
as i, ej n yj went to the other class, rachel n long choy also going to sc3 but samson goin to sc 1...ok, there something happen between me n him but i dun wan mention it now...

ok, go into the class, sit at front row, cause i really scared of it and i really need to start and work hard now... this would be a lesson that will kept in my heart forever... cause i m one of the 3 who had drop class n it's really shameful... haha, maybe i should be more +ve n receive my fate ba... ^^

OK then, i muz face every teacher that come into the class bravely, cause when they come in, they will surely ask, got new students? how many drop, how many raise... all sort of ques.. as for us 3 who r sitting in front, we r so clear until every teacher realise that there are 3 'new' students... ok then, this really hurt but i think this will last only for the first day ba...

another hurt paragraph, juz to express my feeling... once i m in sc 2, i can hear the noise coming from sc1, the laughter, the chatting voice, ah pok shouting, every voice n sounds that comes out from the class, it seems that is so familiar, n i hope i will be part of it too... but, it's impossible now... haha... start to thinking that sc1 is my home... i really miss it... T.T...

then i think finally the first day end, nobody in sc 1 really comes n say hello to me... dunno la... that time i juz feel like that lo... T.T

5/1
second day... in sc 2, maybe today i will stress about the teacher ba... somehow, i like mr. lai so much, my mood to learn physic had ady come back, phy used to be my favorite subject in form 4 n form 5... haha... now really like it again... n every moment hope for mr.lai to teach more... walao... haha... i became so odd liao...

n then, the next subject is math, mr. chu period is quite boring, but somehow i like to solve math question... haha... juz keep on solving from holiday until now... addicted liao...^^

after this... is chemistry... i don't think my chemistry is so good... so when the teacher is explaining... some of the things i still not manage to catch it... as the sc 2 students is having their extra class in the holiday, i never attend, really miss a lot of things... but nvm la... i will borrow their paper n do some revision ba... GAMBATEH! people work once, i will work twice, until i totally understand wad is it...

but then the other two subeject, it really can't help if u work twice or triple... n this is the language subject... my pa teacher n muet teacher, keep on catching people out n shoot them with bullet... walao... if u r not careful maybe u will being boom by the teacher also... i had been shoot by mani many times o... cause maybe he thinks(by looking at my innocent face) my eng. is not so good... n i keep on being his target all the times ( sitting in front) haiz...

p.s. today shifted to form 2 block... two word to describe it... NOT FAIR!!!

6/1-8/1
wad should i said... omg... the pa teacher, wad wrongs with her... we all guys sitting in front got wrong meh? y need to change place!!! argh! grace n amy who r sitting in the boys group is being shifted out n exchange their place with ej n yj... N i m the only guys sitting in the gropus of girls!

i think i should feel happy ba? sitting with all the girls?
or feel sad... cause maybe next time u see me my action n reaction like girl liao... or perhaps i dunno wad's all the guys talking about? haha... nvm la...

i will said that this is a good change... i keep on wanna to stay in the first row cause i want to become really serious... giving stress to myself... force myself to hear every words coming out from teacher... n after the changing place... i had another impact... really big IMPACT!

somehow when i group with amy when outing, she is so 'dian'... i means SS la.. so i think she will be ok if sit beside me ba... but, haiz... y she in skul n outside so many difference de... T.T she is damn serious... really... walao eh, sometimes i chat with her she does not had any response...(so serious doing hw or listening to teacher) omg... Now! i had lose my talking partner... n i can't even hav fun in class...so wad should i do? CHANGE! haha... i think i need to change back into nerd ba... or if want to said it more nicely... i should said change to serious ba...

ok, then, i shall really really thx to mr. chu... he make me realise that i was really in trouble... n i need to focus in my studies in order to had a beeter pathway for my future... really thanks u transfer me to this class... i had ready to begin a new life in this class... i really need to study hard...

this week had been the longest week ever in my life... it's so hard to pass... but i think the effort i put into study in this week is more than the effort i put into my study life for the last year... really, i m not kidding... n my energy wasted really fast... every period, i muz concentrate... i means after the changing place... anything that i can't get it or dun understand i will try n solve it... really suffer, n every period i m so tired and fear of being shoot... really tired life...
every morning i woke up i will start to refuse to go to skul... n i really scared of it for the first 2 days... but then, after this, i start to be familiar with this kind of life... hopefully, i will try n suit myself in it...

N as a conclusion, form 6 is for us to really put in effort to study... really...I really need to catch up those things i can't even handle when i'm in lower 6... argh... really a lot of things... btw, after u all reading this post, u will think that... erm... did kok chun become hard-working liao???

SADLY, the answer is NONONO... XD
juz to tell u all that,
i had drama time for 2 hours per day...
psp for 2 hours per day...
n the good thing is...
no more pc n sms...
trying to keep up all the hw.. (expect for chemistry, too many!)
btw, no extra revision had been done by me until NOW... haha...
So, i m still quite a lazy bump if u look carefully... wakaka... XD

N now... i had wasted about 45 minutes to type this blog... (kim fa sake)
n now is 12a.m. of saturday... woohoo...
n lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! JON WYN!!! haha... funny eh? hehehe... XD

haha... i dun think i manage to summarize it lo...

2009-12-31T04:34:00.000-08:00

haha... the to be continued... i think i not manage to write it down somemore... cause really tired ady la... paise if i too lazy ya...

ok, here's really the summarize..in 2009, it had a lots of event happen... i will list out one by one...

first... make my life change the most
working experience as a part-time teacher in my life...

the benefit
-i m not more a shy guys... n maybe it open-up my mind to be more socialble...
-had more interaction with girls... n not shy to talk to girls as earlier...
-had took me out of my home... ( no more zai nan) ^^
-let me know how to care for someone
-let me had leadership when teaching the children...
-erm... wad somemore... haha... surely is hav my salary la... lolz... money money come!
-start to love kids

the bad
-always hang out with my colleague until late night...
-waste a lot of money... dun know how to save it...
-start to hate kids...
-start to think that i m so proud of myself... lolz
-start to cane students... really dosa o... lolz
-tiring job... everday need to shout... lolz

ok, then... here's the next one

experience gained in driving institution (zap city)

the benifit
-of course la... learn how to drive... haha
-start to in interact with people who's learning too... haha( i means start to speak up n make friends... which i would not dare to done it earlier)
-start to become more berdikari ba... ( cause always i go by sitting the van... which i had to walk some distance from my house in order to wait for the van... n then after finishing the practical, the van will fetch me to bus stop... n i need to walk some distance n continue my work... T.T that time is really suffering...) after work sometimes had to walk back home also... 2 km ler... haha... exercise ba... lolz
-learn to be punctual... haha... the van really punctual de... n the driver had a bad temper too... if u didn't make it on time... he will just... swap... disappear ady... (yys should know this... lol)

the bad
-very bad instructor... when teaching me, his hand is shaking... maybe got Parkinson disease ba... lolz... jk la... i not so bad kk... but he maybe too old le ba... n very strict also... haiz...
-how to say (bao) i hope some of u who had done that when hving jpj test should know ba... really regret ler... lol
-tired, tired again...

aiyo... dunno y... become so lazy liao... go play game a while ya... bb... ^^
TI BE CONTINUED... (i dunno really will continue de ma... haha)

the year 2009

2009-12-29T23:56:00.000-08:00

ok... i got a plan earlier to write down all the things i undergo in 2009 into a book... but it seems like i had not enough time... ( all use to travel and games liao) haha... so i juz write a long summarize here.. XD

ok, this year... no need to say... is a turning point for poeple who's like the age of me... which is 18... can i call this a curse... haha...some of our friends had go to college or universities which they will undergo more changes in their lifes...
ok, in the beggining of the year... or at the end of year 2008.. we will undergo our first change... that is... go to work after SPM...

ok... here's the summarize...

END OF 2008
this is where i started to change... ok... after sp... wad to do... hang out with friends, play a while for about one weeks... then all like lost contact liao... then after playing for one weeks... i become back me which always stay at home... until...my cousin which help me out...

JAN to MAC 2009
oh yeah! 2009 is coming... it's indicates most of the students will go back to school
for study... (no matters primary skul or secondary skul) haha... then as i said on the beginning of y post, y cousin help me out izit? haha... actually she is working on a tuition institute i think...(for primary skul de, got giv extra care for children de...) i think u all know wad is it... e.g.(shuo shi or cao ji)haha... then after a few days of 2009... she come n fetch me to work... btw... i can walk t the institute cause it's juz a stone throw away distance from my house... lol... then i shal seperate his int two parts...

working experience
guess wad she told me to do when i first go to the institute? haha... i guess is juz go n staple paper, photostat n fileling... jum something like an office job only... but... i really didn't expect she send me to skul n call me to send the student back to the institution centre... wad the hell i know how to do ar! i dun recognise the students at all! walao... muz call them gather under a tree first... then the van come... n then muz make sure they reach the institution safety... walao eh... but then, this will come in handy after doing it for about a weeks... the worst oe is i need to giv out the brochure...(special thanks to ellen) to the parents... walao.. i really hate this job man... haha... earlier in front of our skul also got people giv... but i see them juz throw away after receive the paper... haha... really hurt when u see the paper is juz thrown off like this...T.T but i juz giv only for the first few days la... haha...

then... haha... this is the interesting part... i meet someone when i m working for the first day... i think she also working there ba... lolz... cause when m cousi fetch me to work... she suddenly turn to 7-11 to fetch her... i also surprises le...
then after that... when my cousin send us to skul n with both of us a stack of brochure to distributed... we went into the skul together n distribute together... haha... it was fun n then... i recognise her n she is quite a nice lady... haha... maybe earlier i had not much experience interacting with girl ba... so my shy reaction makes her think that i m cute ba... lolx... her name is... haha... nvm... u all no need to know... but she's older than me...

lolx... so the first day we juz distributing the brochure n sending the students back to the institution... that day my cousin still there because both of us also working for the first day n not realy know who is the students we need to send back to the institution... wakaka... by then... i juz realised it needed 3 rounds for the van to send all the students back to the institution… wad the hell… it’s hard to gather them around u know…they are f…… noisy n ran here n there.. walao… I faint man! so after make sure all of them back to the institution… phew… I think my job has done…it’s so exhausting… I wonder wad my cousin want me to do next… hope juz sit in the air-corn room n fix with the documents… if got pc giv me type things is better… haha… but… I’m juz DREAMING!Keep on dreams, dude! when I juz step in the institute… she threw one big pile of exercise book to me n ask me… ur chinese ok de hor? I start to had bad feelings about this… n really…

OMG! she want me to teach the primany one students (most noisy students) CHINESE! walao… she juz giv me some book which stated wad to teach n put me in one room… juz like that… n the big pile of exe. book which is going to distributed to the students… omg… after I m waiting in the room… really nervous… then, I saw a big swamp of bees flyin into the room… n when they rush into the room… it’s like the movie 2012… the earth is shaking! haha… juz very noisy la… some of them even jumpup n down like monkey… soehow I manage to shout at them n make them queit… haha… nicely I m a prefect in skul… got a bit experience handle with students… n when I think I settl down the situation… I started to feel proud of myself… but! that’s not the end… for about 5 min…. the war started again! haiz… I really… T.T… ok, the first things I do when I teach them is wad? I hac no ideas at first but somehow… my mind flashback n think that always when a teacher come into my class in primary skul in write their big name on the blackboard n introduce themselves to the students… so I juz do it at the same ways…

I worte… ‘ye lao shi’ on the whiteboard… haha… then guess wad happen next? (ye zhi lao shi) I heard one of my students yelling… I really did not expect she to know that words man… walao… she know how to read ady a… really surprises me ler… haha… then I began to think… if like that… most of them is very intelligent ady la… no need me teach much they also know liao la… haha… really happy…

to be continued... ^^

...

2009-12-25T00:15:00.000-08:00

爱情里最残忍的暧昧
是我明明知道我爱你
而我们却只是好朋友
友情里最自私的胆怯
是你明明知道你爱我
而你还假装只是朋友

两个人，不勇敢，怎么爱？

haha... see this in yin chiu blog... lolz... maybe this will make me emo a while... but okok nia...

ok, first, i would like to say something which keep in my heart for a very very long times... n this make me become worst n worst in my form 6 life...

form 6... n this year 2009.... i had face a lot of problem... n i juz keep it... even all my best friend... n my 'zhi xin' friends also won't know of it... i really hopeless... but anyways... thanks to mr.TC, mr.CP n mr.EJ plus... ms.NP, ms.ET n ms.WS who would hear of my problems n kindly solve it for me... really need to say really thankiu to u all... haha...

ok, first... the problems that i face a lot is... ok... i really dun wan to say that words... i think most of the form 6 students facing it... some succeed... but mostly all failed... ya... perhaps... this is our critical years... once it has past... i would be ok... haha... there's a few possibility we would want these 'things'

1. because we r curious about it... n had never tried before..
2. our life is far too 'boring'... n we r thinking to make it more colorful... by finding these 'things'. our life is not so boring through... cause we can light it up by others ways too...
3. cause we wanna to step out to become more mature...
4. cause have those 'feeling' which is all fake...( i juz giv my opinion.... dun punch me)
5. erm... can't resist other couple to be so nice... n want to find one for ourselves...
6. juz to experiences the couples things... i juz say it in guys of view... well... i means... try to experiences holding hands... kissing... huggings... n so on.. this is more on the first point that i mention...
7. juz to get one step fowards for being a friends... wad i means is...(for guys) u always care of her... n want to make her ur lady... n not wanting juz to let her be ur best friends only... haha... this is the main problems face by me... like the phrase above...

爱情里最残忍的暧昧
是我明明知道我爱你
而我们却只是好朋友
友情里最自私的胆怯
是你明明知道你爱我
而你还假装只是朋友

两个人，不勇敢，怎么爱？

i write it again juz to make u all clearer...

ok, r u finding these 'things' according to the 7 points above? if u do... plz... stop it... dun start a relationship if u think love is juz like this...oops... i accidentally said it... haha...

ok...next... here's the side effects...
1. not concentrating in studies... ( 100% )
p.s.: i means can't concentrate while u can't get it... afetr u get it... perhaps u can concentrate.
to be continued...

phew... today heart blood come active... haha

2009-11-14T21:25:00.000-08:00

so long never touch this blog ady... erm.. really very long liao lo... cause erm... somebody shoulf know de la... i Hav erm... about 5 or 6 blog... so sry if i never update this blog ya...

today... i will summarise the trip i went to kl... n wad i see...

ok... so i m on the second bus... really regret not taking the first bus... i heard that u all having a great fun there... haiz... ok lo... after that reach skybridge... also not able to get up eventough i got chance... really stupid ler... then juz walk at the bottom floor there solving the puzzle lo...

n in the skybridge there...
I solve 1 puzzle..
kim fa solve 2 puzzles
i also know that for those who wanna go to toilet... it's RM2 per entry...
erm... see the stupid lighting n dun think it's creative...
that's all for skybridge

then... go to eat at klcc... at there... these few things happen

ann chze gang dunno go where... they keep on saying they at signature but never tell us wad floor they at... earlier got here is the same floor with petrosains but... haiz... is the floor below petrosains... dunno who hear it wrongly n make us walk round n round at the 4th floor lor... haiz..

n then had the claypot rice..( can see in my fb profile) too much ady la... until eat till so full... then go to bookstore lepak n then when in petrosains lo...

after this.. in the petrosains... we having a great fun... n u can see those pic in the fb profile too..

n then erm... go out... m having dinner... guess wad i saw... zhe hao may be interested... haha... i saw two 'ang mo' go n kao miki n fong shan... really... this is true... benjamin n karen also saw that... i going to took some photo but benjamin stopped me... i also scared wait those guys come n hit me ler... haha...

then after this... playing some stupid games with kok boon... really stupid until i can't solve it... until now i only know two tricks he had done only... the gun want still grr... haha... tell me lar... if anybodys know... kk la... i think i write more than enough ady... time to go gaming... YEAH!

exam soon!

2009-10-24T07:45:00.000-07:00

Gambateh... Gambateh... Gambateh...
For all lower six students...
add oil ya...

spechless

2009-10-16T01:47:00.000-07:00

it's really hard to say
it's really complicated...
it's really frustrating..
it's really confused...
i m devastating...
n really hard...
really really hard...
does anyone know wad i means?

exam is coming soon..
n we need some preparation...
so i think this is the reaoson i selsom write blog..
but had another reason through...
n not totally influenced by this
soonly soonly..
waiting n waitng... haha
exam a exam... u really made everyone's life grumpy..
lolz... thats all.. ^^

aiyo,,, plz la u

2009-10-03T23:45:00.000-07:00

aiyo, plz la u... wad that's means huh? i also dunno
now i also blur blur de... cause exam is NEAR
today wake up at 12 p.m. BREAK RECORD liao... haha... then thinking to do some revision after lunch...
i start with doin the math t. when doin the math... the probability for frderal i can't even solve a question...
someone plz help...Then wad happen next... i throw away the math book n try other subject... CHEMISTRY...
then also.. flip a while only... cause really not intersted...
Then haiz... at last back to physic... planning to revise circular motion... At least i manage to answer about 5 question... the 6 question really make me mad... i read wrong de question... n juz realise after about 10 minutes... GRRR... Then i throw all my book down n guess wad... i m here now writing blog... my weekend is going to wasted again... HAIZ
PLZ HELP ME!!! haiz... like this my exam sure very jialat man...

tired, exhaust, aching... hahaha

2009-09-21T21:53:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up… I know that this things will happen to me…

My whole body start to paint again… For so long I didn’t play badminton ady… I think for about 1 year ady… Haha… So, the side effect of this is paintness on my muscle!!! Every single muscle in my body is fill with paintness man… I wonder m I old ady… Hahaha…

So, yesterday I went to yu hwa n play badminton with 8 more people… Which is chee hao, ann chze, doreen, ann chze’s friends, jing kai, melvin, wan sheen and wee sern… They say will start at 9 o’clock… So, I think that most of them would not be punctual n I really don’t like to wait… So, I will juz go there at 9… I reach there at about 9.10… Then, I juz saw jing kai waiting at there… omg… I still can get second a… I m thinking that they start to play ady… so we juz pay the rental fees n went in… I wonder y I need to pay RM 6 for playing 3 hours with juz using 2 court le… I juz see jing kai paying the rental fees like juz 23 ringgit only…N I m thinking that 9X6=54.

I wonder why eh… CHEE HAO… haha… nvm la… juz play for fun only la..

So, I n jing kai went in… his racquet is with chee hao, so we can’t start playing yet… so we juz chat a while while waiting for old the slowpoke to come… wan sheen come first… follow with chee hao n melvin… so, we juz don’t want to become light bulb n playin on the other court leaving wan sheen n melvin doing some sort of ‘training’… haha

After playing for a while… the person with slipper n girl come ady… somebody start to not concentrate in his playing… same as me… because the laugh sound… haha.. so doreen ajak me play… so I juz call her go to a empty court n play cause nobody using ma… but no light le… but nvm la… she so NNNNN… (how dare u say me in ur blog) haha… but at last we have fun over there la… Then we play double… with ann chze n wan sheen… we always eat ann chze man… so cruel… sorry a ann chze… don’t know de zui u how many times ady lo… wakaka… I remember is 4 rite? if not mistaken… lolz..

Then, I challenge jing kai… because his standard is almost same with me… but I lose to him… Argh!!! How come… first round 10-20, second round better.. 20-22… haha, it seems like I had improve… nvm… one day I shall beat u… jing kai… haha… Then all of us is exhausted n our playing mood gone down… At about 11.50, everybody is leaving n leave me alone… but nicely some ‘nice’ guys n ladies decided to wait for me… haha… is ann chze, jing kai n wan sheen la… really good friends who can wait for me… but… I also need to belanja them eat ice cream la… haha… wan sheen still eating jj le… haha… At there, we saw something really funny… really funny… wan sheen n jing kai notice it first while ann chze at me still blur… But after that, omg… I n ann chze laugh until…. hahaha…. really funny man… Now I got some important things wanna tell all the ladies… if can…juz where black shirt ya… that’s all I can say…

Then these three guys also very naughty le… try n hide my wallet… nicely I quite ‘jing’, cause I can see their face expression, it’s telling me everything… haha… Then, after about 15 minutes hanging there, we all go back ady…

N now is me… My family decided to eat at old town… so we went there n had a look… nice environment tough… but I really can’t enjoy cause my body is sticky n I’m really thirsty… haha… When my coffee arrived… I juz drank it like mineral water… omg… I juz wasted the nice coffee.. T.T… Then, I ate the nasi lemak at there… It’s quite nice… N finally, the time has come… Finally, I can go back… haha… After I go back… juz have a bath n continue to…. hahaha u all sure know wad I do want lar… wakaka… surely not studying want…

HELP... I M IN TROUBLE!!!

2009-09-12T07:56:00.000-07:00

This week... I had drown myself into a big trouble!!! It begin like this...
This sunday... I had ntg to do so i decided to online n watch some variety show... But somehow... after watching the variety show for an hour, i fell that it's becoming more n more boring...
So, i decided to watch others show n the first things which came to my mind in bleach!!! Even though my friends, ej had advise me not to go n have a look, but i ignored him n now... I'm in BIG TROUBLE!!!

I had continue to watch the bleach since this sunday... N almost everyday, i'm sitting in front of the laptop watching the bleach... Juz can't stop for it... So, until today... i manage to watch until the episode 56... One ep. takes about 30 minutes n 56 ep. means that i had ady watch 1680 minutes man... How could i do this... I only spend one week to watch this u know... N if u count it properly, i would had watch the shows about 4 hours per day... That means that i had spend 1/6 per day for the show... OMG... Someone plz help me... I'm addicted to this show ady...

Then, these few days actually quite many things happen in skul... Juz words fail me to describe wad had happen... But maybe i could juz write out a things of two in my blog... Firstly, it's my muet test... We done it quite quickly though, since that teachers had an appoinment next, she juz roughly give us some comments... Maybe i should be said as a 'ke le fe' in the group... All my friends r paying attention to the two pro... which is wei hao n eu jin... So, maybe u all never know my existance... but nvm... i will try hard to brush up on my skill... But i know that i had a long way to go... So, l6sc1, let us gambateh together, u all surely can do it and stand side by side woth wei hao n eu jin of course... If u really try hard...

Then, another incident is that when school dismiss, i was goin to join teck cong to popular there n have my linch while waiting for my father to fetch me... But i saw ellen n decided to sit her car bad... It was quite funny though... erm... juz nothing la... When we walk to her car, i saw 'her' again, walking to her car alone too... then, wad happen next... erm... u all juz guess la... that's secret... Ok la... Tell you all la... I m juz a cowards u know... My legs juz refuse to walk even though ellen is pushing me foward... Hmm... then i decided to toss the coin n made the decision... As i toss, i fell to the ground... Maybe i shall go n take a look, but i'm juz not there to look at it again... I don't want to create more and more questionmarks on my head again... I don't want to start my mind to think about her again... I really don't want this feeling again... Maybe only a few of my friends will understand this feeling... She, had made my undergo a lot of things through...
N today, i meet her again...

It begin like this, i'm on a rush to my chemistry tuition because i don't realise that it had change to 4.30 p.m. It normally starts at 6p.m. So, i rush upstairs... N when i m rushing up... I saw her rushing down... Then something happen... Actually, it's juz quite a small things la... But, these things made me emo at tuition centre for about an hour... lol

Haiz... these word is always on my mouth more n more often...
N my emo time is becoming more n more...
Y would this happening on me... (+ the addiction on bleach)
HELP...

erm... really frustrating

2009-09-10T05:24:00.000-07:00

These few days I'm keep on thinking about something which is very annoying... N i really don't know how to cope with it... Maybe is i too noob ady...

N the things is... erm... i can't really tell you all but it's really annoying.. maybe i had being hurt before n not dare to take risk again... these things really made my form 6 life wonderful on the very first few moment n after this, i feel more n more miserable in my life... Thanks for those who r trying to comfort me earlier... Really tq...

Erm... Actually, i also the major problem which I'm facing with... N really, these made me day dreaming all over the time in the class... Sometimes i feel that I'm losing my way to live in this world... Y should i live in this world huh? When i think about this question, my head start to burn out n comes out of all sorts of ideas... Anyone of you have any ideas about this?

'These' things i had mention earlier is really an annoying things... Shall i said that the things is annoying?? i don't know... maybe I'm juz blur n trying to step into it... maybe they dont realise... fine... Maybe i should juz try n avoid them... But i really can't do it... Haiz... i m in totally blur now... If anyone can understand wad i wrote here... he/she is really my truth friends...

This week i really learn a lot... N 'these' things really made my mind clearer n clearer... n on the other hand, blurer n blurer... how should i said... maybe is juz made me into trouble i think... this week i know about many things about many people... i had learn from it n i think it may be useful for my life in future... i would like to thanks these 3 people... but i think that i no need to mention who's it... that person should had known himself/herself... So lastly, i really like to say

TQ FOR ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT ME...
N FOR THOSE WHO NEED MY SUPPORT, I WILL BE A GOOD LISTENER... BUT OF COURSE... ERM... I START TO BLUR AGAIN... HAIZ...

N LASTLY... THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

yu tou mi fen

2009-09-05T01:07:00.000-07:00

yesterday, juz as usual again...
wake up-go to school-duty-study-go back home-online-sleep
(this is my daily routine)
yesterday i stayed a while at library cause my father got meeting n i need to wait...
so, at there, got ann chze, teck cong, kim fa, xin hui, chee hao n doreen...
wa... all my friends at there... so qiao... then we juz chatting niao hua all the way n i think chee hao got study a bit only... At there, ann chze show me the yu tou mi fen n juz today afternoon... my mother cook it for me... wa... quite nice la as this is homemade want...

then yesterday nite i quarrel with my sis juz because of using the laptop...
finally i manage to beat her n get the laptop at 11 p.m. nicely most of my friends haven offline yet...
so i juz chatting from 11 to 1... juz chatting le.. haha... so long didn't chat until so syok ady...

Juz another normal day…

2009-09-03T04:29:00.000-07:00

Today… As usual… go to skul… duty… study..
These few days really does not have anything special happening to me..
Maybe this is quite boring… but I feels good… finally, I’m out of my problem…
maybe sometimes I will still think about it… but it will juz last for a few minutes…
maybe if u got observe me at skul… u will realise it… but now is quite ok adi la… earlier is even worst… maybe last holiday makes my feeling become paler n paler ba…

Haha… today I really evil man… I threaten siew’s son to pumping 10 times… I saw his face also turn pale ady.. Juz said that I’m kidding lo… lolz… dunno he will go n tell his father or not eh… If not, I m in trouble… Then the rest is all ok… I means my morning’s duty…

Next… go into the class n lots of funny things happen again… hahaha… especially the english period… n today I saw somebody’s blog… walao!!! But I also very pek cek in english period cause I ady prepared so many things about superstitions but the teachers suddenly change the topic… really pek cek man… aiyo… haha…

After recess, I go back to class n Ellen show me something on her table… I really can’t see anything le… but somehow after that… I realize what is all going on… haha… this want I juz keep u all suspend la… haha… Then is physic period… wow… tell u somethings… I also can’t believe it man… This is the first time I so concentrate in physics period… Finally, I learned something man… maybe this is because this chapter has less formula n more about theory lo… haa…

Next is math period… I feel that mr. ho is very funny le… even though he is a mature man but he still act like a kids… when he see wee sern talking with doreen.. he lean his head towards them n trying to stop them from talking… maybe I’m only the one realise ba… because this happen in juz a few second n I don’t think many people realise it… but his action is really funny man…

Today… I still saw her everytime I went out my class, or when I m duty… but I still not able juz to go forwards n chat with her like the past… maybe I chosen the choice to escape… I really scared someone would eventually hurt me again… I’m too scared about love matters now… Sometimes the god really like to make fun of people… when u want something… I means u really want it… he may not give u… But when u try n forgot something… or u want to get rid of something… he give u the things u want to get rid of… n really make u feel very worst u know… Maybe u all shall try n write the word backwards n see wad will happen… haha… juz kidding… I’m not mean to said that…

movie... wallet...

2009-08-30T08:28:00.000-07:00

Erm… Yesterday was quite a nice n bad day… how to said this?? Let me begin…
ok… that morning, I woke up as usual… erm.. about 11 a.m. cause yesterday sleep too late ady… n have my daily holiday routine… playin pc n do some homework lo… wad else.. at about 3.00 p.m. I was about to prepare cause will go hang out with friends later..

So, the first things I want to find is my wallet… Normally it will be at the bar there… but today somehow it disappear ady… I find n find.. until I turn my house over, but I can’t find it at last.. Then, I calm down n try n think.. Erm.. the last times I with my wallet is at the barber shop… then, I quickly went to the shop n find my wallet.. But somehow, the wallet is not there… I began to feel hopeless. (cause my ic n lesen is in my wallet), n if I lost it, I need to make lots of report… haiz…

At last, teck cong called me n said he is waiting for me… Really paise ya.. because of this incident I’m late… then when hr fetch me there… he talk to me I’m the 6th victim in the seventh lunar month… walao..After this we go fetch ann chze, doreen, and wan sheen… ( the three leng lui) After we reach there… we juz hang out at the shop… Suddenly my hand so itchy want to take the photo but being stopped by the shop assistant.. but some how I manage to took one (three of them shopping)

So we juz walk n walk until all of us feel hungry… then we pelan to had our dinner at the foodcourt in dp. there we have some funny topics la… At there, we meet kim fa… but after finish eating ann chze going to left because of some problem she had recently.. feel really sorry to her.. So, teck cong send her back lo… The remainder juz go buy ticket lo…we brought 10 tickets for RM100.00 cause ah pok invite his other gang lo… After buying the ticket I planning to play arcade… here’s some photo…

After this… we go n watch the movie… we laugh so loud until the whole cinema is full with laughter… After this go lim teh… n sayonara..

below is some pic of our enjoyable time... but my camera no battery at that time... so manage to take a few only... haiz...

需要

2009-08-28T00:16:00.000-07:00

如果把你的眼神默背好

就可以无视寂寞的悬崖

我想，我不会像现在这么糟

如果把走过的路都记牢

就可以面对断线的依靠

至少，孤单不用如此的骄傲

不止热雨的微笑

增加跟脑海的湿掉

抓不紧，也放不掉

未来的某个街角是否转身就找得到

爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到

只要你觉得快乐就好

梦会温热眼角，让回忆像水草般缠绕

却总能让人勇敢不笑

爱是一种需要，聚散却没办法预料

只能在心里做个记号

直到哪天遇到，还会是同样的味道

下雨也好驱风也好心想着就能不会难熬

BBQ (er... i know many people ady use this title... but i still need to use it)

2009-08-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

@#$@#@$$@$#$%$%^$%&^&^
I know that this will be a long blog, so I had enough rest first before I write this blog…
Last few day really had a lot of thing happening… wakaka.

ok, how to start huh… ok la, start when I’m finishing the physics tuition…
As we are all in the holiday mood, we only got 50% concentration in the tuition… haha..
Then, eu jin fetch me n yong jian back to his house… we bought some ice n battery on the way back

When, I reach his house… Erm, juz feeling like not expected lor… I think his house will be like quite big… but ok la… also quite big lar…. After putting my luggage in his room, we went down for the lunch, it was quite tasty le… His parents really know how to cook man. After eating, we are thinking to take nap but eu jin want to learn mahjong n we didn’t rest at all n dicussing about the mahjong lo…

After finish dicussing, we went down and fix the microphone, n finally, we manage to duel with it when kim fa arrive… he arrive just in time man… Then, we sing until the house nearlt destroyed le… Their parents also scared of us… Nicely their neighbour went out ady… hehe..

At about 4.30 p.m. we decided to go swimming… so, eu jin, yong jian, kim fa, shalyn n me went for swimming. We are having a ball of time there and took some video( u can watch it at kim fa’s blog) At there, I lose something when pushing eu jin into the pool. N I not dare to think about it again… Haiz… don’t talk about that ady la… After that, zhe hao arrived n we call him to meet us at swimming pool. We kacao n kacao him again when he reach the swimming pool… He so kesian… Juz reach only being disturb by us…

Then we went back and have a bath n then doreen call me… she siad she enter to the second junction ady… don’t know la… as I know… she juz went to the wrong junction. After that, kim fa n me go n lead her in.. We nearly lose our direction when lead her in again man… haha… But we manage to find ej house at last… After this, a lot of people arriving n we are having a whale of time in the bbq. U can see the picture in my facebook…

erm… somehow I feel that it’s quite long to write out all the bbq experience le… so, u all juz see from the picture la… hehe, I become lazy ady… haha
After this, like about 1 a.m. they all went back n I continue my ps2 until 6.a.m. juz go back to sleep… That’s all, I want watch drama liao… (lie huo xiong xing) bye bye

THIS DRIVE ME CRAZY

2009-08-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

I KEEP ON PLAYING WITH THIS GAME UNTIL FROM 10P.M. UNTIL 6.A.M. WITH LIANG KHAI AND KIM FA... THIS REALLY DRIVE US CRAZY MAN...

Haiz, not enough sleeping la... so write like this first... so tiring, tommorow juz continue to write my blog and upload the photos... Sry for keeping u all waiting ya... That's all

Love Matters n Class Analysis

2009-08-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

Erm, wad to write huh?This few day really no mood to write le…
Where to start huh? This week everything is ending for me…
Wakaka…
First, is the love, I know I had to stop it in order to reduce my painness in my heart.
N the second one is schooling!!! Yeah! Finally, it’s time for me to rest!!!

Err, after the last blog I’ve wrote, I had a bad times for about 5 days, and guess what…
I had free my self from her quite a lot… Maybe I should do that earlier…
Without contacting each other for 5 days… but when I saw her face, I really can’t control my emotion but at last, I had cope with it… It’s quite hard u know… hehe

Since that everythings needs an end for it… Today, I’m going to let her know my feeling about her now… Today morning, I waited her at Ming Han from 6.40 a.m. I know that this action is quite stupid because it’s juz a waste of time, I can just tell her in school, but, I think that if I can tell her without interrupt by others, it will be more ok… I wait n wait…. until my white hair also grow up ady… N when it’s about 7.10, I’m going to go back to school because it’s too late… But, I already waiting for her for so long, why not I juz wait for 5 more minutes? So, I decided to wait for her until 7.15, I decided to count the car pass through for 1 to 10… When I count until 9 car, I begin to sense my hopelessness, n when I count until 10…

Sry ya, the rest all must keep secret because there’s something funny happening and I really can’t write at here, this is er… maybe can call something private la… hehe…
And after the funny things happen, I’m not able to express my feeling to her… After waiting for so long, still haven’t tell her the truth… Haiz… T.T

OK la, don’t talk about those thing ady, it made me nearly late to school, but everything is ‘zhi de’ de…. My english very bad la, haha. Then when I go in the school, I saw my skuad n saw on the top of their head got a big question mark… Maybe they r thinking… Why our ketua skuad today come so late want huh? Normally he very punctual wad… ( haha, my face so thick eh…) When kumpul, I ask them anyone saw me today… N for sure, their answer is NO. Haha, then I also got nothing to say lo… because I never saw them duty ma… Then teck cong come and tell me that today at 11.00 a.m. all the teacher got meeting…walao e, that means that all the prefect must come out for duty again!!! Sianzzz…… Today I think that I also go to school for nothing again, juz chatting niao hua all the way… Really never done something valuable… haha

Sometimes, I shall say that my attitude is very bad in class lo… Is because of my laziness I guess, always never listen to what teacher’s talking n talking at the back and syok sendiri especially with the frog n a new person who kena our virus… kim fa… you r in trouble man… wait we will pull your marks down le… wakaka. I think when teacher’s teaching, the guys at the back are doing their own things… Some chatting, some sleeping, n some of them is day dreaming… Let me analyse this, this is just my analysis ok, it may not be truth… haha, see u all got wad comment la..

First row (L)
This row is quite focusing when teacher’s is teaching, but sometimes one of them will fall down, or emo-ing… no need to say is who la… that person will know de..
Overall focus energy: 80%
Hotness: 80%
Sleeping aura: 20%

First row(R)
This row is known by s.h.e in our class… I can said that they are focusing everytime when the teacher’s teaching, no one in our class can beat this group…
Overall focus energy: 98%
Hotness: 40%
Sleeping aura: 30%

Second row (L)
Erm, this row maybe I’m not so familiar with it, cause maybe got less connection ba…
I only know one person in this row quite well… she may know it… n the rest, after my observe, is quite ok la… but sometimes one or two of them will fall asleep lo… But maybe is too tiring already ba… But, overall is quite good, they’re also quite focusing in class.
Overall focus energy: 75%
Hotness: 20%
Sleeping aura: 40%

Second row (R)
Err… This group… I’m speechless la… 3 of them can consider as niao ren n chatting niao hua all the time… Sometimes they may focus de, it depends… The emotion of this three guys is highly flexible… Because they always got lot’s of problem to think about such as love, studies and career… But I think three of them is the happy go lucky type of person, they will be fine after a few hours n start to chat with their niao hua again… haha
Overall focus energy: 55%
Hotness: 99.9%
Sleeping aura: 40%

Third row (L)
Err… Can be known as ss group ba… Cause always laugh at our stupid jokes like mad person… wakaka. No need to say paying attention in class la.. One of us have a nice sleeping position… popia king… he is the one who’s sleeping lor, then three of us is syok sendiri when teacher’s teaching lo… wahaha… But got one profesor inside, so sometimes he will focus especially in physic period…
Overall focus energy: 10%
Hotness: Unknown
Sleeping aura: 50%

Third row (R)
Err, this group is a mixed group… Hard to analyse la.. It will be quite long, cause it is too much budaya inside. First, got one big mouth profesor inside lo… His thing no need to say ady la… He’s ady a big mouth ma… Then is ah pok, or ‘qing shen’… He is also affected by love matters lately, but now’s ok.. Sometimes, u need to call him a lot of time he juz reply u want… Maybe he’s too serious with his job ba… don’t ‘an shuang’ ya…
Then is the two sleeping bugs… not much to said, and one shy guy… profesor snape (ervin) Come on, juz brave yourself up man, the girl in our class won’t bite you want…
Overall focus energy: 50% ( affected by the sleeping bugs)
Hotness: 60% ( also affected by the sleeping bugs)
Sleeping aura: 80% ( Don’t ask why)

Forth row (L)
Erm, juz fill in by two person, always chit-chat at the back, talking a lot of private things and mostly is about girls, don’t see them so gentle eh, when they become fierce, very horrible de… hahaha… They also like to disturb popia, scared him with all sorts of things… So, do you thing they will focus in class???
Overall focus energy: 15%
Hotness: 100% with girls, 60% with guys
Sleeping aura: 60%

Forth row (R)
This row, err… no comment lo… got three emo guys, I also don’t know wad the hell they do at the back… Maybe they are hot sometimes, I never know… As we said… Don’t judge a book by it’s cover… One of them also affected by love matters, no need to say la, the whole form 6 know ady wad… with the same name as me… haha
Overall focus energy: 20%
Hotness: 15%
Sleeping aura: 70%

Fifth row (L) (R)
Err, this row is quite unique… haha, maybe you all never see anybody sitting there eh, but sometimes got people saw some thing floating near there… I guess you know wad is it right??? wakaka
Overall focus energy: Unknown
Hotness: 0%
Coolness: 100%
Sleeping aura: 99.9% (hope is not 100% cause now they are quite active ady, remember wad
is the lunar month now)

P.S. THE SLEEPING AURA IS AFFECTED THE MOST IN A PERIOD, AND I HOPE
THAT EVERYONE KNOWS THAT… WAKAKA

Ok, I think today I had write more than enough ady… if got any comment, plz speak up or write on the chat box beside… thanks ya… I need your support…

erm... how?

2009-08-16T03:24:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up juz as usual, about 9.30. Cause got tuition.
N i'm really exhausted when i'm on my way to tuition.
In juz a few minutes, i had thinking a lot of things that happen recently...

Yesterday, i msn a fellow, which i'm not so covenience to tell u all who is it...
I know that she was sick last few days. I heard that she had vomit n had a bad day...
But when she is suffering, i don't know wad to do... N when i try to care about her, she juz refuse to my help..
Maybe i'm wrong... I'm a disturbance for her.. Or i'm juz worse than being a friends for her. But, why, why should this happens to me?? i had though for it again n again... repeat to think of it again n again, but at last, i didn't get the answer...

Maybe, this is because of that incident which happen in the past 1 month?
This had made our relationship broken down... I mean totally break down...
Somehow, i manage to cope with it but it's still a mystery for me what will happen next...

N lastly, these things had end up with a sad ending.. Everything has an end of it, it depends, some of us may had a delightful ending, but some will has a horrible ending...
It's juz the ways u cope wih the problem... N how is ur feeling when u know something is happening to urself. Maybe u all is quite confusing about this but let me clarify it...

Yesterday, i'm thinking to invite her out to jonker walk...
So, i decided to invite her by sending the ivitation through facebook mail...
But when i open my msn, i realise she had online... Therefore, i chat with her n realise a big secret.. I means the secret is quite big for me only ok...
The secret is certaintly unacceptable for me at that moment, but it is the truth, nothing can change it, n if i really want to change it, it is nearly impossible...

The secret is she already had a boyfriend n she is going out with him tonight
I really cannot accept the truth. Firstly, i m thinking she was kidding...
But, soonly, i realise that this is not funny at all...
I became more n more impatien n thinking of it again n again...
Finally, i decided not to disturb her for a moment because i need time to accept this...
But i think this will last forever as i know that it is hard to continue eventough to continue as a friend... I shut down my pc, hopelessly, n try to realease my stress with all sort of ways...

This afternoon i went for gym with my working friends... N i think that it was the best time to release stress.
I'm the first one to reach there. After that, they arrived one by one n we go up the gym n paid the entrance fee... There is a indian guys there which can be consider as coach. He asked us, all of u come to gym first time a? We watch at each others, n juz nodded.

So, he force us to cycle for 15 minutes with our fastest speed.
After this, he tured on the screw so that the gear is tight n harder to cycle. For girls, he juz turn 1 round but for me, he turned 3 times man... that means i need to cycle harder than them 3 more times man...
After this, he made us do the climbing excersise, but the machine i used is different for them, but that's ok la... I juz climed 30 floors in 5 minutes n the machine keep on remind me that i'm steping too hard... hehe...
After this, the coach tell us how to use all the machine in the gym n i become the white mice to demonstrate how to use it... Some of the machine is quite smelly man!!! haha.

After showing how to operate all the machine (there is about 20 different machine), we are free to walk around n try... I want to concentrate on my big belly, so i decided to try the machine which can keep my belly fit. The machine which use to trained our stomach muscle there is from 17 to 20. Therefore, i keep on repeatin on those machine again n again... Until i feel exhausted... I juz try the machine for my hands n legs. or in scientific terms, biceps n triceps.

Maybe I’m thinking of ways to release my stress y doing this… But after trying all those machine, I think that it’s not enough for me. Out of the blue, I saw the sand bag which shine brightly in front of my eyes… Without hesitation, I rush through it n punch it with all my strength I left. I keep on punching n punching n my mind is still keep on thinking of all the incident between me her……
Until my friends come n stop me… At that time, I saw my hand is bleeding n not too serious la, I think that if they never stop me from keep on hurting myself, I would seriously hurt… After watching my hand, I continue to cycle beside the mirror, I can feel the wind breeze sweeping on my face n I feel that it’s refreshing. Therefore, I stop cycling n walk towards the windows. I watch down the building n see the vehicles passing through the building one by one… Once again, I’m thinking to kill myself… Y should I do that, nicely my mind is still clear never do that, why should I die juz because of these small incident??? I’m thinking of it… I think I should made this as a lesson for me for not too childish next time… I shall look before I leapt…

After this, I shared my sad experience with the ladies, they are quite nice n listen to my experience carefully… They said that I am too aggressive n I need to slow down my pace. But I think that it’s too late. But they tell me that anything u want to do won’t be late, it’s depend on ur determination and courage u had… I think that they are quite right but I ‘m really too frustrated to continue, I’m really tired with this man. They also advice me that there’s a lot of trees n flowers when I’m in university. All of them had their boy friends ady n they share their experience with me, I had learned a lot… But their experience I shall keep secret la… lol

We dismissed at about 7.15p.m. They are going to jonker walk after this n they asked me whether I want to join… But I have no mood, really no mood that time n refuse their invitation.

That night I can’t really sleep cause I really cannot accept the truth yet, I’m thinking of a lot of reason, and thinking that she would cheat me… But I now that it’s not possible to be the truth…

Finally, I’m back to sense n go into the tuition centre… Haha, I guess some of you all had left out because maybe really thinking too much already… When I go into the tuition centre, I’m seeking for my final confirmation with a person, which is her best friends… N when I know that that’s the truth, my heart really drop to the bottom of my heart, he said that she also don’t know that she had bf until yesterday night she juz realise.

I go into the class hopelessly, thinking of it again n again, did I do anything wrong, maybe… My mind is juz totally blank for 2 hours in the tuition n only at the last 30 minutes, I came back to sense n continue with the lessons, but I’m still got a little bit blur la… HAIZ………..

Y the god want to treat me like this!!!!!
Someone please help me…

Some of the picture in the gym is publish above.... Quite messy la... hehe, i don't know how to arrange le...

finally, the war has ended peacefully...

2009-08-13T01:29:00.000-07:00

today morning i go to skul is juz as normal...
first go l6sn3 n suan somebody, then go duty...

walao so funny... one of my ahli... i think is huei wen, told me that she saw ghost yesterday nite... the ghost is a cat with scary eyes n on the centre of the road last night...
she said that she was the only one who saw it when her mother stop the car while her brother n mother never saw it.... her eye sure got problem liao... muz go n check... so, anyone who live near bukit cheng shall be careful because she saw it there... near my house...

after halau all the student from canteen, i nwalked out to tennis court n the first thing i felt is.... RAINING.. juz as i ask teck cong wad to do next, i saw the form 3 n form5 students walked back into the class without receiving any instruction... i'm thinking the other ketua skuad will block them from going into their class because his job i s to guard the class while mine is to guard the canteen...
BUT>>> he didn't even block the students ways into their class n juz lepas them only... but also cannot sayhe 100% wrong la... cause i also didn't help him since it was raining ma.... but today i shoput at him again, i feel so sorry to him man... sry ya... ah toh... i know that i not suppose to do that to u but the situation is too bad ady... i had no choice ma...
thinking to going back to class after this... but, something which made me shocked is that siew want us to call ALL, i means ALL the student to come out n beratur again... so, i juz try my best with my penolong n manage to call they all out... BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 siew scolded me n said got a lot of form 5 upstairs, i m thinking... not the other skuad halao form 5 meh??? how come they all never come down one???
as i go up the stairs, walao... all the form 5 students still playing inside their class... ireally 'pek cek' man.... i shouted them one class by one class angryly... n they all juz guai guai go down lo... maybe my shout will make many people 'bu shuang'... but that time n really fed-up with this man...
WHEN I CAME DOWN!!! i saw something quite funny, i saw ah toh juz coming n halao form 3... i really angry n scolded him again... haha. i very evileh... always scold him, he so ke lian...
then i saw my ahli all coming towards the form 3 block... i ask them curiously...y u all come here, i halao finish liao ma... they said siew call them to come here because nobody halao... i call they all go back to tennis court with me....
THEN, SOMETHING I REALLY FED-UP HAPPENS.....
AS i walk in the teenis court, i heard siew said like this...

Siew: the ketua skuad saya pun tak tahupergi mana, semua balik class... kamu ini kan pengawas, perlu tunjukkan teladan kepada pelajar ma...

wad the f.... i really want to go in front n give him a punch man... ady help u so much to halao the students all over again u said like this somemore... go back ur village la... stupid... bastard... only know how to use ur mouth to earn money.... go n cut ur tongue made u cannot talk a...
wakaka.... m i so evil.... don't take it seroiusly la..... juz kidding...

(((sry ya... phak sheng... i know i not suppose to wrote that)))

then i m thinking of doing nothing after 1 hour, very wasting time, never even study yet... so, i decide to ask doreen to thing me coding method lo... thanks ya doreen, i think i know how to do in my exam ady... i means after ur teaching... really tq...

after this, guess wad, i peng to sc 5 ady... juz gossip lo... but i think my feel is not as stong as earlier ady... i don't know y, n not going to know y.... juz sui yuan lor.... i really don't know wad to do man... my head got a lot of maybe? maybe this? maybe that? juz a lot of ??? in my head out of a sudden...

Recess time, i go n duty again... haiz... irealise that the pagar behind the form 4 is broken down... n my ahli told me that got people ponteng.... after collecting the information, i tell ketua lor.... firstly i m thinking to walk with her n see teacher want... but...haiz... malas la, need to walk so far somemore... so, i juz stay there n here teck cong talking niao hua with all the form 4 guys...

after recess.... i feel very tired man... really tired as i went into the class..... cause really too many ??? in my head ady... i really don't know wad to do, talk niao hua also no mood ady la... so, i juz sitting alone n trying to sleep, always i want to juz close my eyes n sleep, got people come n kacao me... first is wan shean... then is yew ming, n last is ann chze.... haiz... idecided not to sleep ady la... i juz wake up n become emo lo.... dreaming all the time until exam... i know somebody got the same feeling with me lar.... but my situation is worst.... i got lots of ??? in my mind n don't know wad to do.... so, i juz sit down n take out a paper n list out wad m i thinking... but also got people disturb me agian.. i fed up... after lipat the paper.... i tear it into pieces n throw it away, without any mercy... i really fed-up on that time man... but after the exam i feel release.... so now ok ady lor...... haha, write so long today, ntg to do at home ma.... i think enough ady la...bb

wad the ..., nvm, left one subject only la... can relax

2009-08-12T02:08:00.000-07:00

haiz... so long never touch my blog ady.... since tomorrow only got maths 2, i can finally breath in more fresh air n not the smell of hell because i nearly reach heaven ady...
about last few days, i m so stressful n going to break into pieces coping with the exam... but finally, i get my first flat in form 6 that's my pa... i got 86 man, how happy m i... but when i think about other subject which i going to fail like physic, chemistry n maths, my heart gone down again, 1 more is the things la.... u all know want la...

today morning maybe i m too cold too my skuad ady... i use them as my 'chu qi tong'... sry ya for those ahli in my skuad.... cause today morning my mood really not so good... if i shout at u all, hope u all don't mind ya... if i m too cold, never respond to ur question, i at here muz say really really sorry to u all....

when i walk into the class, WALAO E!!!!! i saw physic (8.00-9.30) written on the black board, i haven revise anything yet because of yesterday incident.... but nvm la, juz flip through the notes a while lo, i also lepas tangan ady de... the question mostly come out from the longman book, if u all check properly... n some the mr, lai go n change the answer until no correct answer inside the exam... if u all check properly, u will realize it...

after physic test, suddenly we all don't know wad to do next, cause muet no need study de ma... so our class is diveded into a few dicussing group again... i also selit here selit there looking for news.... hehe, i very flexible want, n i don't mind if u say me pat... i really got a bit sam pat want...
walao, today kim fa done something very brave le, he tried to grab something from somebody n grab her hand tightly man... chee hao, be careful o...haha, i guess u all know wad i mean ady lo...
ok, want go eat liao, juz write until here la, the rest all muz keep secret liao...

EXAM!! EXAM!!!! EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-07T20:38:00.000-07:00

argh, two more days...
wad can i do, today morning i enclosed myself in my father's tuition room to study.
(without handphone, psp, music, n my pc) so, i can't do anything n juz concentrate on my studies...
i think this will worked but after 2 hours, i can't stand it n rush downstairs n on my pc again... haiz, y can't i controlled myself... Y!!! someone could help me? If like this , i scared i get a lot of red result man...
but this type of style works u know, after studying for two hours, i learned more than i study 6 hours downstairs. very confusing eh... let me summarize this...
study 2 hours without hp, pc n psp = study 6 hours with hp, pc n psp...
i guess u all know wad i means...
so try n study without all those things, i hope everyone can get good results ya...
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!

remember u... liew kim fa!!!

2009-08-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

walao, he so cruel... u know... u muz not be like this n mind ur attitude man.
how can u call ur injured ahli to do 10 times pumping plus 10 times disco...
haiz, i juz pei he ni u know, if not st. john lam liao
haiyo, cannot like this want... this is my advise la... but nvm la... afetr this also don't have meeting liao, got puasa...
n haiz, next monday got exam liao la... so sad... i still can write my blog hor, i wonder why
tomorrow dont know want to ponteng ma, haiz... anyone got idea???
today go to form four got people ask me to teach physic, but haiz... all the thiungs i forgot liao, how to teach... lagi sia sui want is i ingat she is upper 6 want... but ok la, i got people teman to chat n no need duty... hahaha, next time can do like this for every form.
today when i m talking with doreen, suddenly siew n chee hao appear...
n er..... long story la, i lazy want type...
lastly, i really like to be in bio stream man, it's so nice.. especially the experiment... can duel with the animal.. but got a little bit cruel la....
u see physic exp., kanasai man, still using the pendulum doing all sort's of stupid experiment... haiz, i want to change stream liao la...

haiz... a quite boring day...

2009-08-04T01:36:00.000-07:00

today morning when i woke up, i'm thinking not to go to skul, after thinking for a few minutes, i decided to juz go la......
but, i made a wrong decision as the period is soooo boring n i didn't even learn anything in skul...
the physic teacher made my life suffer more... haiz, he also always do wrong the question but he always admit that physic is very easy...
i really want to wallap him man!!! When he said the phase (physic is very very easy want)
oh ya, about the presentation this morning, the starting is quite good but there's a lot of mistake in the graph... so sad.. n i hear something after the quiz between chee hao n xxx it begin likte this..
chee hao: ur voice is so... er.... na............. tu.... raal.... i also dunno how he pronouns it la...
xxx: thank you...
doreen, be careful o...
juz a small thing only la, don't care much about that anymore...
haiz, last few day i m busy with my xxxx things n now, it's solve.... n another problem is coming soon!!! n will happen soonly, n that is exam!!! walao, all the subject i haven't even touch yet, somebody could help me ma???
i think tomorrow i should juz stay at home or go ske n study because...
I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING AT SKUL!!!!

life's still full of challenging..

2009-08-03T01:58:00.000-07:00

Finally, i decided to continue my blog...
i don't think that i would be fun in form 6..
in these few months, i really undergo lots of problem...
First, is the relationship... but it's solve now...
Second.. is the career.. About the prefect things... But it's partially solve...
Thirdly, is the study, the suffer want...
Until, now... It's not solved yet n still a mysteries...
That's the summarize of it n i dont want to talk about the sad life again...
today, i m a brand new person again...
like leehom song... gai bian zhi ji
i want to forget everything in the past n gambateh...
today i had my peka n everything going smoothly...
that's all...
oh ya... many people got h1n1... today when i walk with karen back to the class, she's seems like not so comfortable.. i ingat is my problem but she said she got fever+sneeze+sore throat... walao, when i listen to this, i m so scared man. quickly, i cover my mouth n nose with my blazer... haha, i so pervert eh... no la, i juz act like i m scared of that h1n1 disease...
lastly, i hope our skul will be closed down asap especially on next week... cause exam ma... wakaka!!!!!!!!!!!

first day

2009-05-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

i don't ever dare to go to school man...
my hair is sucks!!!
After finishing my ns course (second badge), but i leave the camp half way by using form 6 as a reason. Firstly, i'm thinking of form 6 is helping me, but, now i'm thinking of it is killing me man!!!
The first day in form 6 is awful...

I reach the skul at about 6.45... but the form 6 orientation starts at about 9.00, so i went to the ske to study first...
Funny eh, wad should i study huh? I didn't get any books yet rite... No la, i m juz finishing my chinese novel i read in my camp...At about 8 o'clock, i finish reading the whole book n take a deep breathe because after this, i need to face the things which i'm not daring to do once i come out the camp... Going into crowd without caps...

As i go into the school, i saw cing ki kai xiang n eu jin sit together...Then i saw all my former skul mate n a little guys from other school. We have chatted all day long abount our ns exp. n the sharing was quite good...N i know some of some kah hui secret which make her very susah... I m so evil man...

after this u know la... The orientation things, every yerar is the same want...
I need to wait until two o'clock man!!!Don't know how i manage to wait until 4 o'clock next week, two is hard, 4 is insane man...

But today i meet with two girls which i hav known each other... But i juz couldn't talk with them somehow... Because of my hair... I lose a lot of confident... Haiz... Faster grow back!!! MY HAIRS!!! U are almost everything...